Transcendental Sith lord's OFv4 Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Well, seems like another paradigm shift has happened.

Lots of things have changed now and I feel like I am that reality where I am just executing the script. I think one major thing that helped that happened is that I realized any critical thought I had regarding changing my beliefs to what would be needed to execute was from the point of the view of the already established belief system and its way of thinking. If the current belief system is toxic, dysfunctional and getting you no where why would you then let it judge the new belief system required to execute the instructions? Its not like the current belief system is getting you what you want right? If its not getting you what you want then why listen to it .. much less let it judge what the correct way of doing things is? I finally just let go and stop letting that nonsense happen. I realized I needed to just believe what I needed to in order to execute the instructions and let the new system itself (OFv4) speak for itself. See that system through its own eyes if that makes sense.

Something interested happened when this all occurred. I literally felt myself go through every single major event that impacted my life and looked at things through the eyes of what would have happened had OFv4 been the system my mind was running on. I could literally feel and see how things would have been different. I felt my mind just suddenly expand in a way and I noticed just how deep and spacious my mind's inner resources were. As if I was letting go of all the self limitations imposed by fear and could truly see how much potential I truly had. That then led to something else which was almost like seeing an alternate reality version of myself in my head. I could see how much better my life would have been had I just let all the fear go. Women, money, success, power I saw how all these things could have been mind with no issue. As like with anytime you truly see the truth of a situation you usually can't simply go back. For me there is no going back to ignorance after seeing things how they truly are. It wasn't even just seeing, its like I could literally feel how my life could have been different and how I can still choose for it to be different now.

There has been one side effect of this which shows me this huge amount of fear has been permanently removed. I can literally think of what results I could get if I go down a certain path in life. Lets say continuing to learn programming or say focus on women through DMSI. Its like I can literally feel myself in that reality. I can see all the possibilities and results. Its not like day dreaming, it feels like my whole conscience is in that moment experiencing those results. There is no more real limitations to what I can achieve going down any path that I choose. I am not afraid of experiencing the results of making those decisions. Did I waste some time until I finally got to this point? Sure... but the good news is I don't have to waste anymore of my life or mental resources on dumb mental belief systems that aren't helping me at all.

I feel this very imposing sense of fearlessness inside of me that will not be controlled. Its very much influenced how I see people as well and I definitely don't feel fear on calling out people on their crossing my boundaries. Though funny enough I have this impending sense that sense these changes less people will try that nonsense. Also I just realize trash people are trash people and you should be happy when they leave your lives. I know people don't want to hurt other people's "feelings" but if someone has a trash personality and treats others through their actions like trash just cut them out of your life. If they leave out of their own accord fine by me, the trash just took itself out. This has even influenced my opinion on relationships as well in that if someone wants to start being a liability to my life instead of an asset, there is the door and don't let the door hit you on the way out. I have no time for nonsense drama anymore and it seems like some women just crave it for some reason. Something else that goes along with that I have like the biggest I don't give a fuck attitude ever now. I think the realization of basing so much of your self esteem and self worth on other people is nonsensical now. I realized while looking back over all those memories all these people that I allowed to have power over me were hot messes themselves. A lot of them didn't have anything going for them or they just stayed in this stagnant zone of just "getting by". Hell I remember seeing some of the people from back in high school who thought they were so great and most of them struggling working two jobs and some of the women just getting with questionable men and end up being single mothers. Just part of me woke up and realized the insanity of this all. I was giving power to people who in reality didn't truly posses any. They don't even have very much control over their own lives, by choice I might add.

I don't know how much fear has been cleared. My guess is a very huge amount but at this point I don't even care to think about it much. I'm executing what I need to execute at this moment in time and its more than enough to building a very good foundation on. Life feels much better and full of so many possibilities and opportunities I had never considered before. I will say once again Shannon was right. you really don't understand how much fear controlled your life until you finally clear it all out. You sometimes wonder when will you be done but I can tell you right now you will know when you have reached that point as it will be undeniable. You will "know" and "feel" the difference significantly.