08-09-2022, 08:13 AM
Yesterday I felt a bit dissociated but the recognition of it is an improvement because I was in a highly dissociated state for quite a while before OF so I just recognized it and kept going. Even the awareness of it is good because it means change.
While the diet and power of awareness have been helping on a conscious level, OF has been digging deep. Brushed up against the fear of intimacy yesterday but the response was minor to nonexistent. Multiple dreams a night but I don't remember them and that's fine. With the sub the dreams are going to happen and process without my conscious involvement anyways.
Periods of relaxation or peace are more frequent in occurrence and duration.
Just letting it all happen is creating a sense of peace. Most likely due to the fear that spurred on my need for "control" in my life being dealt with.
While the diet and power of awareness have been helping on a conscious level, OF has been digging deep. Brushed up against the fear of intimacy yesterday but the response was minor to nonexistent. Multiple dreams a night but I don't remember them and that's fine. With the sub the dreams are going to happen and process without my conscious involvement anyways.
Periods of relaxation or peace are more frequent in occurrence and duration.
Just letting it all happen is creating a sense of peace. Most likely due to the fear that spurred on my need for "control" in my life being dealt with.
