OFV4 Special Case Use; Digging Deep

[Chris P. Bacon]

The last 2 days have been more stable than last cycle's days off. I feel much better but still have some fear responses although they are a bit muted compared to baseline.

I'm pretty sure OFV4 caused me to "stumble" onto Eckhart Tolle's book The Power of Now. I do not know If I would have been ready for this book any earlier in my life and it's too spot on for everything I need at this point in my life. I'm on my second go-around of that book. It's been so good for me and has explained a lot.

Other than that, the days off are a lot quieter internally than last cycle so it's all good.

That’s a good book! Thanks for reminding me about it! I should really check it out now since I read it a long time ago and I’ll be able to gain insights now that I wouldn’t have had before. I can’t wait to start OF4 in a few days and join you guys!

Isn't it interesting how you can read the same book at different points in your life and it hits differently? Enjoy re-reading it!

Also, have fun on your OF run. It's a great sub for sure.






The insight from the power of now and OF has been a good combo for me and it's starting to assist me in being conscious of all the unconsciousness in me, most likely to fear. As the fear subsides I'm fairly certain that I'm going to have to spend some time re-integrating all the unconscious parts of me that were cut off by fear. Or maybe that will be the natural response from the removal of fear anyways.

I'm pretty sure my subconscious is giving me the green light to run OF tonight and skip the 4th night off. This is an experiment in trusting myself and what I feel. Previously, I would deviate from the recommended cycles to be as "efficient" as possible, but now I feel really solid about skipping the 4th day. Time will tell if that's the right choice but for now I'm comfortable skipping the 4th day off as that was were I had TID and when it became a bit more difficult.