07-24-2022, 09:42 PM
These past few off days have been interesting and a little draining.
1st day off felt pretty good in the morning and for most of the afternoon but later in the day and into the night, I got in a bit of an irritable and kind of low emotion mood. The slight irritability was most likely due to the sub but the low emotional mood does happen to me sometimes. It wasn't as low as usual though.
Today I slept rather long, which is unusual. I haven't slept this long in quite a few years. More upbeat than usual today which is most likely due to the sub.
I personally used to dread off days as they had a degree of unpredictability as far as how I was going to feel but despite some of the issues I generally feel better, or at least not miserable. My emotional quality of life of V4 so far seems to be a little bit higher than normal.
It's also quite possible that OFv4 has cleared some big fears already or the instructions carry deeper into the off days. Off days can see the sub diminish 90% or more effectiveness in a span of 36hrs after the last day on in the cycle depending on the goals. MLS has seen an odd level of resistance from me for unknown reasons. OFv4 seems to be maintaining its level of effectiveness for much longer, or it has cleared some things for me permanently.
For me, subs have quite frequently felt like a medication that only masks the issues and doesn't really fix them. Now that's most likely due to fear and OFv4 is the first OF to do what it's doing; addressing the underlying issue..........fear.
I know it's only been 2 days on and quite frankly I'm hyper-aware of my internal state so all these minor changes are noticeable for me and maybe others aren't experiencing what I am, but they might be getting the same results but just undetectable as everyone's threshold for awareness is different. That being said I really feel like some fears have been addressed and "checked off" the list.
Body awareness is still noticeably improved but it still takes some conscious attention to be aware that I don't have to default to the uncoherent state of being in my body. Working on that.
Fatigue is still a little higher and today I will be going to bed only 2 hours later after sleeping around 12 hrs.
So far days off are stable, this is good.
1st day off felt pretty good in the morning and for most of the afternoon but later in the day and into the night, I got in a bit of an irritable and kind of low emotion mood. The slight irritability was most likely due to the sub but the low emotional mood does happen to me sometimes. It wasn't as low as usual though.
Today I slept rather long, which is unusual. I haven't slept this long in quite a few years. More upbeat than usual today which is most likely due to the sub.
I personally used to dread off days as they had a degree of unpredictability as far as how I was going to feel but despite some of the issues I generally feel better, or at least not miserable. My emotional quality of life of V4 so far seems to be a little bit higher than normal.
It's also quite possible that OFv4 has cleared some big fears already or the instructions carry deeper into the off days. Off days can see the sub diminish 90% or more effectiveness in a span of 36hrs after the last day on in the cycle depending on the goals. MLS has seen an odd level of resistance from me for unknown reasons. OFv4 seems to be maintaining its level of effectiveness for much longer, or it has cleared some things for me permanently.
For me, subs have quite frequently felt like a medication that only masks the issues and doesn't really fix them. Now that's most likely due to fear and OFv4 is the first OF to do what it's doing; addressing the underlying issue..........fear.
I know it's only been 2 days on and quite frankly I'm hyper-aware of my internal state so all these minor changes are noticeable for me and maybe others aren't experiencing what I am, but they might be getting the same results but just undetectable as everyone's threshold for awareness is different. That being said I really feel like some fears have been addressed and "checked off" the list.
Body awareness is still noticeably improved but it still takes some conscious attention to be aware that I don't have to default to the uncoherent state of being in my body. Working on that.
Fatigue is still a little higher and today I will be going to bed only 2 hours later after sleeping around 12 hrs.
So far days off are stable, this is good.
