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Luckily I no longer feel dizzy in bed, also today I had a very strange dream, it was about me smoking as an addict and other stuff but me smoking was the most important considering I don't smoke, what could that possibly mean, lately I've been thinking about how obsessed I am with negative outcomes, like when I always check how is my hearing fearing I start to hear less, always expecting my hearing to get worse which led me to think about the time when tinnitus first appeared, at that time I was testing to sleep listening OF with an external sound card, I guess at the time I was worried about the volume and unconsciously fear that my hearing got worse or something especially at the right side which the earphone was a bit more inside the ear, then a few days later tinnitus appears in the right ear, what a coincidence, but what if I put it this way, if I was unconsciously worried about my hearing and my mind doesn't know what to do then my body will try to protect me somehow, and how can my body protect me from the threat of hearing loss? creating a sound to tell me everything is fine, that my hearing is fine if I can hear that sound.

So maybe that dream was also telling me how addicted I am to something, to negative outcomes, I will try to get rid of this behavior.