02-03-2015, 04:47 PM
Hey everyone, decided to make a journal of my experience with Emotional Pain Relief & Healing Aid.
Background story
High school was one of those losers that just stared at girls. Wishing I had one. College was able to talk to women and be friends with them. Made a solid social circle and one of the women ended up liking me. I never had a woman like me decided why not and jumped into a relationship with her. This lasted for two years and she dumped me. Mostly because I was so clingy and I made her my everything. I became seriously depressed. Everyday became a struggle. I didn't know how to create a social circle or get a girlfriend. I was filled with negativity and it grew til I was hopeless. For two years I was depressed because I was so alone. I applied to a grad school and got in. This change was the best thing in my life. I made friends and created a large social circle. Soon I wasn't depressed any longer and I became extremely happy. I was a way better person than before. I thought I was free from depression forever. I was wrong as I relapsed in Dec. 2013. I just looked at myself in the mirror and just thought ''i'm ugly'' and soon a waterfall of other negative thoughts flooded in and I soon fell into a panic and depression. I didn't know what to do. I have tried therapy and hypnosis but they didn't work. I still have a cloud of depression always around me. Nothing I found enjoyable creates joy anymore and it sucks. This led me to subliminals. I did Emotional Pain Relief & Healing Aid after a break up and it didn't seem to work. I jumped onto AM 6 and was really optimistic that this will be the key to bringing me back to my happy go lucky self but again it didn't seem to work and on stage 3 I experienced even a stronger depression that led me to suicidal thoughts. I couldn't sleep at all on some nights. All my friends are worried about me and noticed I'm really anti social and not happy. I decided to stop AM 6 as the suicidal thoughts were tormenting me and I felt like I lost my mind. I currently just feel sadness and numb feeling. For over a year I have been depressed, I am always in my head, and nothing I do seems to stop it. I really want to be happy and enjoy everything in life again. I know how I am when I'm happy and enjoying life and that's where I want to be again.
Decided to journal because that way I can keep track of my changes
day 1
Slept only 4 hours and just laid in bed for another four. my body was tried and couldn't move but my mind was racing thru so my thoughts and memories. Worked out and felt great afterwards. Had lunch with a friend and I was just completely depressed. Didn't enjoy it at all. Nothing depresses me more than once enjoyable things aren't enjoyable anymore.
Background story
High school was one of those losers that just stared at girls. Wishing I had one. College was able to talk to women and be friends with them. Made a solid social circle and one of the women ended up liking me. I never had a woman like me decided why not and jumped into a relationship with her. This lasted for two years and she dumped me. Mostly because I was so clingy and I made her my everything. I became seriously depressed. Everyday became a struggle. I didn't know how to create a social circle or get a girlfriend. I was filled with negativity and it grew til I was hopeless. For two years I was depressed because I was so alone. I applied to a grad school and got in. This change was the best thing in my life. I made friends and created a large social circle. Soon I wasn't depressed any longer and I became extremely happy. I was a way better person than before. I thought I was free from depression forever. I was wrong as I relapsed in Dec. 2013. I just looked at myself in the mirror and just thought ''i'm ugly'' and soon a waterfall of other negative thoughts flooded in and I soon fell into a panic and depression. I didn't know what to do. I have tried therapy and hypnosis but they didn't work. I still have a cloud of depression always around me. Nothing I found enjoyable creates joy anymore and it sucks. This led me to subliminals. I did Emotional Pain Relief & Healing Aid after a break up and it didn't seem to work. I jumped onto AM 6 and was really optimistic that this will be the key to bringing me back to my happy go lucky self but again it didn't seem to work and on stage 3 I experienced even a stronger depression that led me to suicidal thoughts. I couldn't sleep at all on some nights. All my friends are worried about me and noticed I'm really anti social and not happy. I decided to stop AM 6 as the suicidal thoughts were tormenting me and I felt like I lost my mind. I currently just feel sadness and numb feeling. For over a year I have been depressed, I am always in my head, and nothing I do seems to stop it. I really want to be happy and enjoy everything in life again. I know how I am when I'm happy and enjoying life and that's where I want to be again.
Decided to journal because that way I can keep track of my changes
day 1
Slept only 4 hours and just laid in bed for another four. my body was tried and couldn't move but my mind was racing thru so my thoughts and memories. Worked out and felt great afterwards. Had lunch with a friend and I was just completely depressed. Didn't enjoy it at all. Nothing depresses me more than once enjoyable things aren't enjoyable anymore.