I just realized something, did my decisions were taken for my sake or for another person sake? why do I choose what I chose for? because I thought it was the best for me or to satisfy someone else? then why is so difficult for me to engage on whatever decision I make that goes against what the other want, I can say I will do certain thing but never start it, then here I am doing what other people told me was best even if it is such an undesired pain almost like a machine, then I asked myself who I was trying to satisfy and there was no one, not a single person, it was empty.
I just know people don't care about me, the world doesn't care about me, then why I try to satisfy something that doesn't care? the only one convinced that was true was me, almost makes sense why I don't make sense of life, acting on behalf of my own misbeliefs, for some reason I find myself more stable than before, maybe I'm finally starting to live for myself.
I just know people don't care about me, the world doesn't care about me, then why I try to satisfy something that doesn't care? the only one convinced that was true was me, almost makes sense why I don't make sense of life, acting on behalf of my own misbeliefs, for some reason I find myself more stable than before, maybe I'm finally starting to live for myself.
