Weird, my mind is as always now.
I'm realizing how shame has been destroying my emotional health, first my mind is in a state of "there is something bad with me" or "I'm useless" so there is self harm, then it gets worse when I seek for external approval, because if I don't have it people will start to point me out that I'm wrong or something or I just simply believe I'm wrong, then guilt invades me because I try to get rid of that behavior but I'm unable to and makes me feel even more useless, then there it is this fear of loneliness or emotional dependence which increase wanting external approval, in short I seriously need to shift my life to self love, self esteem, self value, self respect, but most of all get rid of shame, guilt and fear first.
I'm realizing how shame has been destroying my emotional health, first my mind is in a state of "there is something bad with me" or "I'm useless" so there is self harm, then it gets worse when I seek for external approval, because if I don't have it people will start to point me out that I'm wrong or something or I just simply believe I'm wrong, then guilt invades me because I try to get rid of that behavior but I'm unable to and makes me feel even more useless, then there it is this fear of loneliness or emotional dependence which increase wanting external approval, in short I seriously need to shift my life to self love, self esteem, self value, self respect, but most of all get rid of shame, guilt and fear first.
