UH is awesome

[User_000]

Everyday I try to remember bad experiences of my childhood trying to know about the causes of my traumas and the sort, right now what comes to mind is about how angry I got each time my grandfather order me to "learn" about how to behave or how to do certain thing or whatever, even as a kid my thoughts were "learn what you idiot" "fuck that" "I don't care" "get your learning in your ass", whether that was natural human rebellion or something brought by my controller beliefs certainly had brought consequences for instance giving a damn about everything related to human learning (of course is not everything, most likely intellectual or theoretical memory), let's just say I don't care about learning that in a subconscious way, literally I can forget everything whether I like it or not in just one week or in a matter of seconds apart from showing no interest for almost everything in life, how am i supposed to choose or get a profession if studying is a huge pain in the ass, even trying to learn about stuff that picks my interest is hard, most likely I wil forgot about most of the stuff in a week, apart from brain config derived from that and other beliefs as perfectionism or shame, is like a huge spiderweb, maybe that was the reason I got extremely dizzy when using MLS, which led partly to using OFv3.