05-05-2022, 08:35 PM
I just noticed something interesting, even after dealing with fears such as fear of insects my mind still comes up with thoughts and scenes about what if an insect get on my face or whatever and not just that, with everything it considers a threat then there is one fear behind it, so after tracing back anything that could be the source I recalled when my mother told me about her pregnancy and how she feared when I stopped moving, I can imagine her thinking was like "he is not moving, what if he is dead" and since babies experience the same feelings as the mother I suspect fear was acquired that way then just kept getting worse with her behavior, kind of similar as what I'm experiencing, also maybe tinnitus is related to this since when I focus on it similar thoughts run through my mind even for a second so maybe that fear is the first that came to my life and why is so hard to overcome.
