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Finally I realize why I hate so much the idea of working (apart from forcing me to do house work as a kid), yesterday I wrote about being abandoned in childhood, because my parents were usually almost all day out working and for make it even worse they as well as other people always said things like "you need to prepare yourself for work" or "you need to be tidy for work" and shit like that, in my mind I was "so work is more important than me" "so work is more important than life itself" "so work is more valuable" and so, I hate it so much but at the same time the fear of being abandoned prevented me from getting out of that, so instead of do what I want I stick with some shit I dislike because if I don't I will be left alone but at the same time the one who is really abandoning myself is me and only me, adding other things like low self esteem, low self confidence, a lot of fear, shame, guilt for quitting, and more, no surprise my life sucks.

But I'm forgiving myself for letting such shit happen, and just let go of it.