04-22-2022, 03:48 PM
I'm realizing hypersexuality might be caused by sexual abuse in childhood, in my case no one ever touched me but I remember watching my parents naked and in the bed so that's considered sexual abuse as well so first time I knew I have this kind of trauma, also I'm starting to comprehend what shame really is (my family always giving a shit about what I say and decide and being insulted in many ways), might be related to perfectionism and depression, also regarding that issue yesterday I gave up (on living haha I'm joking) on being perfect and try to do things perfectly, go to hell academic grades, everything go to fucking hell.
Also I'm realizing I was criticised, rejected, abandoned, and many other things, this makes me reject social interactions and even talking about myself or let people to watch me doing common things like brushing my teeths (thank you old man for scolding me for playing instead of working, that's why I always closed the door, shitty family of mine), this stuff hit so hard on my self esteem, self value and self respect.
Also I'm realizing I was criticised, rejected, abandoned, and many other things, this makes me reject social interactions and even talking about myself or let people to watch me doing common things like brushing my teeths (thank you old man for scolding me for playing instead of working, that's why I always closed the door, shitty family of mine), this stuff hit so hard on my self esteem, self value and self respect.
