Transcendental Sith Lord's UH / MLS Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Thought I would give a final word on this sub. I'm currently only been back on MLS for a while now and stopped using UH when I felt like I had done enough for a bit. Wanted to go back and give a final word on it along with some huge updates that have happened.

By my estimate I ran UH for about 2 months or so. I think it was very good that I ran it for that long as I felt it really clear and heal a lot of things. Along with I felt like it made my brain physically a lot more healthy and I didn't have as much brain fog. To be honest while I was on it I noticed very firm but continual changes over time. I think I noticed the most though when I switched to MLS as I noticed now that there seemed to be less blockages so I have been executing the sub a lot more even this early into use. One thing is particular happened the first day I used it though of which UH had a big impact. UH was still running in my head (though I had took a break for a bit) and I noticed that as I ran MLS the mind would try to resist which then would bring that obvious resistance to the forefront which UH would then notice and heal/ clear.

Now there has been an even more major change. It happened yesterday without warning. Essentially I woke up and just realized I'm an addict and I had to change that. Mainly that I'm addicted to Video games and the internet (mainly watching useless entertainment videos). Its like I was able to really see an overview of my life and see how even in just the past year of trying to get my degree done and get to my objectives I would just find excuses to do those 2 habits and end up not getting any work done. Essentially it was affecting me in the real world and getting in the way of getting things done which from my understand is one of the essential requirements for realizing your addicted to something. So I ended up disconnecting my PS5 and basically have limited my internet use to productive things. In the case of youtube only thing related to programming or my course work unless I at least get hours of course work done while driving for my job then "maybe" for the second half of my shift I can listen to something more entertaining.

The funny thing is I have realized after doing things that way for even just a day that I didn't find the stuff I used to find entertaining all that entertaining anymore. I have decided I'm basically going to detox from video games and major use of internet for 90 days. I read essentially that these addictions are quite real and people don't even consciously sometimes know they have an addiction or they try to lie to themselves that they don't, that they are still in control when they aren't. Apparently these addictions have been studied (video games especially) and apparently they can be just as addictive as drug use in studies. They essentially have the same effect on the brain and make the same changes to the brain that reinforce the addiction. So 90 days of detox from these activities is suggested so that your mind reverts back to a pre-addicted state. I will allow myself to watch movies occasionally but even that should be limited.

I have also decided I will do a 100 days training program for the Python language (which will also get me some projects to do for my portfolio for after I graduate). I do plan on learning GO and RUST as well as I feel like these languages will grow in popularity due to their speed and efficiency. So if I'm about to get through these 90 to 100 days I should be a completely changed man. I say this as well because I realized most of the energy and focus I had was focused towards this addiction which left very little focus and energy for the subs at times. I realize now if all the energy and focus put on that addiction was used towards the goals of the subs then I would be executing like crazy. Unfortunately since its an addiction we are talking about of course the mind is going to resist changing that focus. On top of this I will be running MLS for a while (until custom DMSI comes out) while I'm going through this detox.

My hope is that as my mind starts losing focus and directing energy towards that addiction that instead focus and energy will be directed towards the goals of the program. So not only will my brain revert to a pre-addicted state but will probably be more structured towards whatever sub I am running. I do feel like this is a major change as I have literally had this addiction since a kid because my outside reality sucked so I used video games then the internet as an escape and coping mechanism. The fact that this issue has been brought to my attention and I straight up couldn't deny it any longer and had to make a change is amazing to me.

One other major change is that I am literally mainly drinking water now. Before when I was a kid I would mainly want to drink soda then the last 10 years or so juices. Would basically avoid pure water but now the last 2 to 3 weeks I've basically been drinking that along with no really eating much candy. At most anything with sugar in it that I do eat might be popsicles. The only juices I might drink occasionally from a vending machine at work are pure apple juice or orange juice. I just realized also how much money I was wasting on getting all these juices. I have also started losing weight as I have gained a bit over the past year (nothing major but I have noticed) and am taking a supplement to help along with ordering a meal kit service that is more healthy.

So far I think that is most of the changes. Looks like I'm moving in a very positive and productive direction. I just don't have as much interest in living in the reality I was accustom to before. I just don't have as much attachment with it anymore. I realize now that because of the addiction it felt very hard to get out of it and change because as I found out the changes to the brain (especially the dopamine changes) make it so that your will power is kind of sapped when going against it. Now I feel like some of that will power has been renewed and as I move forward with this plan I think there will be a lot of major changes.

I think I won't be journaling unless something major happens that I need to report or DMSI custom comes out which will take a while. Either way I'm just glad with these changes that are taking place.

Edit: Also I ended up buying a relatively decent 9 bedroom house in Latin America. Plan on buying a few more properties as well in a relatively quick period.