Stage 7 LTU6

[Shannon]

Maybe I miss the hot girls from college and cool guy friends I could make and I know I'll never have that again.

Not with that kind of failure based defeatist thinking you won't!  Otherwise, you'd do something to fix it.

Is this E4 in LTU6 working on something @Shannon ? Why am I so obsessed with one girl? Though I'm sad I didn't get a girlfriend in college either.

Most likely E4 is trying to get you past your sticking point.  You obviously think that one girl was your only chance at hot girls, and this scarcity mindset is going to make your life miserable.  There are more women available than you could ever hope to get through even if you filter out all the bad ones.  Hot ones, average ones, whatever you want, it's out there and in plentiful abundance.  Getting stuck on one of them tells me you have to get past some of those self defeating, self limiting and faulty beliefs - about yourself and the world around you.