UH is awesome

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Today I was starting to feel dizzy, very dizzy and then I refused it, as if my subconscious was telling me to not resist, then I resisted and after breathing hard for half an hour it started to calm down, the tiredness was pretty damn strong, even when i was taking an excessive amount of oxygen that normally results in my feets or hands to start tingling (didn't happen this time) i felt it wasn't enough, but in the end my tiredness and dizzyness faded, then I realized about my problem and get to the conclusion if I'm not the one who is living my life (doing, thinking, deciding...) then it got no sense at all, then what is my life for? for throwing it to the garbage depending on others? or wanting to depend on others even if I'm the one who is doing everything? I refuse to live that way, immediately after I was doing my life and it felt lighter than before, more easy.