03-15-2022, 01:06 PM
Now I'm dealing with depression, i don't want to do shit, why i'm even alive, it's useless, and more thoughts are crossing my mind (and my body is like a rock), then I start asking why I feel this way, it's because i have no self esteem, no confidence, no worth, no hope, no love, nothing? or I'm just attaching myself to beliefs I refuse to let go, everything so far was a lie to convince myself life was okey, or I'm attaching myself to the wrong concepts, why should I need a purpose or something of the sort, is because I'm attached to life itself, or because I tried to live it in a certain way, what is happiness either way? I'm at a loss here.
