02-03-2022, 12:12 PM
Day 10 - Feb 3rd (Cycle 2)
Something I’ve noticed lately, is that my more silent thoughts are louder than ever. Like I mentioned in the first cycle that I’m noticing my flaws more and ive realized that it’s not that I’m noticing them now, it’s just that I’m more aware that I’m noticing them. If that makes any sense.
Like for example, say you look in the mirror and don’t like your nose. Every time you look in the mirror, subconsciously you have negative feelings and thoughts around your nose. Then ever since you start listening to the sub the voice that says “my nose looks so bad” is so much more louder and it almost takes you by surprise just how much more obvious that voice is.
I hope that made sense. But my insecurities are just so much louder or more out in the forefront. Or I’m starting to realize why I don’t do certain things and those insecurities are why. Like the way I feel about myself, what’s been suppressed is much more obvious to me.
I think it’s much more obvious because these very things are hindering me from doing things to execute the subliminal and now my brain is bringing it to light to say “Hey, this is why we’re not doing this.. this is why you’re not noticing this… because you’re doing so and so”.
For example, I’ve developed this habit of just not looking at people in their faces .. and it’s really just so I can hide and be invisible. And it’s my insecurities really. And more and more, it’s starting to become so obvious that I’m doing these things and even more so when I try to avoid people or not look their way and people still make the effort to wave hi or greet me in some kind of way.
With the pandemic I’ve become more secluded and comfortable and now I feel like the Subliminal is finding different angles to get me out there or to make me pay attention to my surroundings… because it’s almost like I’m purposely avoiding them.
And it’s starting not to feel comfortable anymore.
Something I’ve noticed lately, is that my more silent thoughts are louder than ever. Like I mentioned in the first cycle that I’m noticing my flaws more and ive realized that it’s not that I’m noticing them now, it’s just that I’m more aware that I’m noticing them. If that makes any sense.
Like for example, say you look in the mirror and don’t like your nose. Every time you look in the mirror, subconsciously you have negative feelings and thoughts around your nose. Then ever since you start listening to the sub the voice that says “my nose looks so bad” is so much more louder and it almost takes you by surprise just how much more obvious that voice is.
I hope that made sense. But my insecurities are just so much louder or more out in the forefront. Or I’m starting to realize why I don’t do certain things and those insecurities are why. Like the way I feel about myself, what’s been suppressed is much more obvious to me.
I think it’s much more obvious because these very things are hindering me from doing things to execute the subliminal and now my brain is bringing it to light to say “Hey, this is why we’re not doing this.. this is why you’re not noticing this… because you’re doing so and so”.
For example, I’ve developed this habit of just not looking at people in their faces .. and it’s really just so I can hide and be invisible. And it’s my insecurities really. And more and more, it’s starting to become so obvious that I’m doing these things and even more so when I try to avoid people or not look their way and people still make the effort to wave hi or greet me in some kind of way.
With the pandemic I’ve become more secluded and comfortable and now I feel like the Subliminal is finding different angles to get me out there or to make me pay attention to my surroundings… because it’s almost like I’m purposely avoiding them.
And it’s starting not to feel comfortable anymore.
