Aside from listening to the subs I am eating better, talking kindly to myself a lot more, working out more or gradually increasing the frequency, doing skin care, improving hygiene, and also going out a lot more. All things working towards.  

• Already noticing sometimes, I just want to turn the volume down or turn it off. It’s subconscious though, because I won’t notice I did it until afterwards. Which is strange because I’m not a stranger to listening to water “sounds” while sleeping etc. i also seem to get headaches or a sensation of fullness whenever I play the subs. The sensation of fullness, similar to pressure when you’re on a plane stops immediately when I turn it off. Headache still remains faintly. 
  

• I waited a day to not take a shower, spent all day at home. And this is unusual but like there’s no “odor” or bad odor. Which is a little weird but it’s only been a day, my deodorant probably still working ha
  
• I do notice after 2 loops in a row I need a break and then the urge to do two more loops pop back up.
  
• More than 4 loops feels a bit too much right now. 
  
• Feel very energized honestly. Before listening to this sub I felt like a zombie the past week and now.. exhaustion is gone. I went to bed at 8pm and woke up at 12am and just felt well rested. 
  
• 14/16 feels so loud sometimes. Always the headache, and the feeling of fullness. Usually I get this from listen to only US format of the subs (reason I don’t like listening to US format). But then again this is a hybrid that has both mask & us. 
  
• Some guy I was talking to, we stopped talking for a bit but this probably was TID because when I started to consider listening to DMSI 3.5 he messaged me again and now we’re planning on meeting up. I don’t know if I should relate this to the sub because he was already trying to hook up prior. (Persistent guy) But this time I feel more comfortable going through with it is the only thing I notice differently in this scenario. 
  

• I’ve had a lot of energy even if I sleep late.. ever since January first I’ve been so fatigued so much so I even considered setting up an appointment with my physician. But I knew one of the things I needed to stop doing was napping and I’ve stopped that.. pretty quickly once I started DMSI. And now I’m going to bed early or on time. 
  
• Eating habits are a bit different but too early to tell. 
  
• I don’t know, I feel maybe even happier? Something is different and unfortunately I can’t pin it down to what it is and don’t have enough data to understand what’s going on with me right now. 
  
• Unfortunately, I won’t be going out this weekend as I think there might be some sort of impending snow storm. 
  
• I also need to work on my habit of purposefully not glancing or completely acting like an attractive guy is not near. A lot of women do this. So if you’re listening to DMSI, and a woman is so obviously acting like you’re there, it might be because she things you’re super attractive and it might be too much. ? anyways this is something I need to work on just for the simple fact that how will I know if this is working if I’m not actually looking? ?
  
• ( TMI)Desire to masturbate has decreased.. is this normal? I hope my libido isn’t getting affected. Mentally I want to but physically I feel like it’s too much work to do it
  

• I honestly feel really disgusted with myself. I’ve never felt this way before. I’m noticing flaws about myself that I’ve ignored the past 2-3 years and just have allowed myself to become complacent. Almost feel a sense of panic as if I’m running out of time .. even thought I’m so young and have plenty of time to work in myself, I feel like I’m suffocating. I’m sure some understand this feeling. I wonder if the subs are bringing up these feelings. But the flaws I’m noticing are modifiable flaws. I honestly don’t even know what this feeling is, as I’ve never ever felt this way before about myself and I’m not one to ever talk bad myself especially on the Internet to strangers. 
  
• I’m barely able to sleep, it’s now 3 am, in the last entry I wrote 2 am or something like that and technically it should’ve been in this entry but I thought I would’ve fallen asleep by now. I’ve never stayed up this much or not been soo tired especially if I didn’t take a nap. 
  
• Anyways, I have some goals I have to do. Ans this feeling of disgust is something I can’t shake and it’s very uncomfortable. I have to do something about it later today. I think I’m going to work out and start planning to go to the gym. I also bought healthy groceries and going to cook something decent. And do my skin care, I don’t have any acne but the texture isn’t the best. I’ll also schedule my wax appointment. Okay I’m rambling now. 
  
• I don’t remember trickling stream being this annoying lol 
  
• So I fell asleep unknowingly and didn’t play any of the sub lol
  
• Went back to sleep and played the sub, woke up saw that it stopped and it just continued like this. I don’t know what’s going on. Then I noticed I was like at 11 clicks instead of 14.
  
• I’m going to listen to the remaining loops while awake now today. 
  
• Anyways going to use the newfound energy I have all of a sudden and just be more productive in general. 
  

(01-31-2022, 10:29 AM)Shannon Wrote: Having a guy start off sexual, become a relationship, end it, try to replace you, have a kid and then talk his wife into including you in their sex life is NOT normal.  Having it happen twice is REALLY not normal.  That sounds like DMSI to me.

Sleep and annoyance issues is resistance, but DMSI should override that with enough time. The self disgust is one way that you can use to motivate yourself to change to become more attractive.  Being unsatisfied with how things are is what creates the motivation to change things.

(01-31-2022, 12:06 PM)ChrissyC Wrote:

(01-31-2022, 10:29 AM)Shannon Wrote: Having a guy start off sexual, become a relationship, end it, try to replace you, have a kid and then talk his wife into including you in their sex life is NOT normal.  Having it happen twice is REALLY not normal.  That sounds like DMSI to me.

Sleep and annoyance issues is resistance, but DMSI should override that with enough time. The self disgust is one way that you can use to motivate yourself to change to become more attractive.  Being unsatisfied with how things are is what creates the motivation to change things.

Hi Shannon, this all happened with the old DMSI, so I can only imagine what will happen with this version of DMSI especially with consistent listening. I was listing sporadically with the other one and just let it play whenever. 

But I thought with this versions there wouldn’t be issues with people who are in relationships or have kids that would approach me or be very persistent. Especially with my ex who now wants to travel to come see me.. but has a gf and new baby.. 

Yeah I agree, the self disgust actually has me making lifestyle changes for myself right now.

• had a dream involving an insecurity of mine, someone pointing it out or making a mumble under their breath about it. 
  
• back to being super tired 
  

• ex is still texting me. Want to say we didn’t end on bad terms but the things he did after our break solidified for me that he wasn’t the person I want to be with. Still a good friend but now I’m questioning our friendship.. 
  
• My sleep is worse than how it was BEFORE the subs ? if this is resistance I’m gonna need it to hurry it up. ?
  
• I do have some potentials to have sex with and I’ve been more open to the idea, even going as far as imagining the things I want to do. But alas, insecurities and also the getting ready and doing the whole shabang is a headache for me right now. Also have an important exam to take so I can start my career.. so that’s also a source of anxiety. Hopefully this resolves soon. 
  
• went out to the store today and this worker was very persistent in talking to me and basically telling me her life story even as far as a disease she got diagnosed with. Gave me some advice and then told me the next time I come to come over and see her so she can see how her advice is going. 
  

• I’ve been slowly remembering my dreams again and none of them have been very nice. 
  
• awful dreams, the people closest to me all died. 
  
• Had another bad dream.. failed my national exam. But in the worst way possible. 
  
• I don’t know if these dreams are supposed to me to gear and get my butt moving. But I don’t like them. Honestly, Bad dreams are such rare occurrences for me. I even woke up and went back to sleep.. and the dream CONTINUED ? 
  
• I think in the third-fourth cycle I will be going out more. Just lots of studying lately so been home.