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I finally undestand, the one who is keeping those fears from leaving is myself, and here I thought the job was mostly done but I forgot something even more important, for making it short in my childhood I got afraid of what people said of me especially because I'm fat (I don't know when this started because my family told me I was slender in kindergarten I think, and it's kind of weird how no matter what diet or exercise I do my belly just keep being bloated, nothing hormonal also) so since that moment I got obsessed with hidding it you know tightening the belly and it became normal to me so didn't realize until now I kept doing it and stopped, then this thinking crossed my mind: "what people will say about me if they see me like this" fear included so I just thought this is kind of similar to denying fears to leave and also strains my body so from now on even if it hurts as hell I will stop doing that and give a damn about what people say, I think this is the last phase so I will give it my all and overcome it.