Transcendental Sith Lord's DMSI 5.8G Journal

[DarthXedonias]

so, I think i figured out what this sub is doing on a few different levels.

I will start with the internal stuff. I noticed I first was concentrated on changing my beliefs while listening to the sub or at least that was the plan. As an experiment I think last week I listened to the hybrid version. Yep, this is the version for me and it was apparent right away. Before I even pressed play its like I went into this trance for about half an hour before I turned it on. It was like I was rocking in my bed repeating: "I don't want to resist anymore". I believe this was my subconscious knowing it can't resist anymore especially in this format and then also its like I felt this internal existential crisis as if I was going to "die". After playing the sub that day It was really interesting as I just felt a lot lighter like something just was removed out of my head. Like there was a lot more space in my mind and it wasn't cluttered as much.

However the biggest change so far was yesterday after playing hybrid. I actually find that I can get TID for up to hours before I even hit play. My mind enters a sort of focused state and all of a sudden I come to all sorts of realizations I hadn't thought of before. In this case the major thing was that I had to change my values. Sounds weird but the logical was kind of brought o my attention. Essentially, the logic, thinking and values I hold in one "reality" are of no use to me or are counter productive in another. So if I want to be in that reality I need to adopt the type of thinking, logic and values that will help me be successful. So I changed my values and how I see things. I also realized something the values I was holding on weren't even my values. They were someone else's values that they taught to me and I accepted them as "me". Only thing they never were they were all I ever knew and I didn't really have an option when I was younger. You usually just believe what you are told then.

Now I truly feel free as now I have values that I have chosen for myself. Everything is as I have chosen. One could say "well the sub is still kind of instructing you on what to believe" but here's the thing. On some part of me by choosing toe buy the sub and run it I am choosing to accept those values and beliefs. When I was younger with parents and society trying to enforce their values on to me I didn't have as much of a choice. I will say since yesterday I have just had this unstoppable confidence in myself and I have this underlying aggression. The aggression that makes you want to compete.

I know the aura works but I don't think it affects most women because of the "hurt" clause. I think yesterday I only noticed 3 women that might have been affected by it due to shooting looks every once in a while but too hesistant to approach. Guess it hasn't found anyone locally where it just affects them full on. I am talking to some red head bbw type women who contacted me online locally. We are chatting for now and she is the submissive type. Will see how that goes.

Now on to the main thing where I think it has been working in the background and now I'm starting to see it pull things together. So a lot of those women I was talking to that are generally pretty hot and mostly in Latin America. So I was first made of aware by one of them that they had a contact who works for their government and knows counterparts in the United states who could get her into the united states (legally I might add). It was recently I might add, where I got more direct from the sub of what it was doing, in that essentially they are now encouraged to seek out this deal along with a few of the other women. Which means they would be able to come legally to the united states and we can meet and potentially live together. The living thing came in later as something interesting came up.

So my father had already mentioned how I was in his will to inherit what he had and he has been encouraging me to come down to Texas, etc. So in between all that I mentioned above I had decided to take him up on his offer as there was good job opportunities for after I finish my degree (actually even beforehand as well). So basically I will end up inheriting the house, some land, and a second house he has in a different area that is about 40 minutes away or so. I do also have plans to expand the space on the property as the backyard is very large. Its interesting how this was all set in motion actually and I have noticed the girls I had been talking to for months already being affected by the sub heavily. I guess this is it moving things in the background to try to get me in a position to execute. I know this because when I first heard of that option the other woman told me about I was unusually focused on it and thinking about it often.

Anyway, I might add all these women (except for one though I thing she can be persuaded) know about each other and are open to threesomes, etc. Yeah, so I'm pretty sure this is the sub at work. There's actually a good chance the main chick I talked about who knows the person in her government might be coming in a few weeks. So, I would say this sub is working though for me its working in a round about way. I will later possibly post the pictures for the women but after like a day I will take it down as I don't want there faces just kept up on here, etc.

Either way, sub is working and the internal changes are awesome. However once they are here or most of them I will probably switch back to MLS as I need to get this degree finished honestly so I can move on to my masters degree. Also side note in case anyone is worried about me i have been talking to these women for close to a year now and I screen very meticulously. Usually as soon as I see any woman who acts bad or just acts very suspicious I kick them to the curb. I've only talked to these for so long because they have proved themselves to be trustworthy.

Anyway, will report more when something else happens. Look for my post regarding the pictures probably later today. I might just keep them up for 2 days or so for people who don't visit the forums regularly. You all take care.