12-22-2021, 10:01 AM
Ya so I've been doing my usual thing of blasting as many loops as I can (ultrasonic) while I'm at home in my room which on a regular basis is between 12-16 hours per day . I took a day off yesterday and I'm back at it today.
Doing 1-2 loops per day just doesn't feel right to me, especially when I'm home so much and could just be listening in the back ground.
Since I read about the solar energy thing I've been going to the window every morning and just taking some direct sunlight on my face and arms with my eyes closed for few min. Hopefully that fuels the sub even more. Honestly I've been feeling pretty good lately, less depressive days and more optimistic.
I've also noticed an absurd level of confidence that I never knew I possessed. I saw an attractive girls post on IG and I just replied and dmed her right away. The old me never would have done that. Even after I did it I was just like wth am I even doing. I had always thought of myself as a shy timid guy, so doing these confident and bold things is throwing my mind for a loop.
Since my UMS journal I did fall off the nofap/semen retention thing for a little while but I'm back on it now for around 3 weeks or so. Sometimes I really want to just do it, but I don't want to lose the energy boost I get. And also I don't release because I want to retain this energy for the sub to use it as fuel and push the results to the maximum.
Doing 1-2 loops per day just doesn't feel right to me, especially when I'm home so much and could just be listening in the back ground.
Since I read about the solar energy thing I've been going to the window every morning and just taking some direct sunlight on my face and arms with my eyes closed for few min. Hopefully that fuels the sub even more. Honestly I've been feeling pretty good lately, less depressive days and more optimistic.
I've also noticed an absurd level of confidence that I never knew I possessed. I saw an attractive girls post on IG and I just replied and dmed her right away. The old me never would have done that. Even after I did it I was just like wth am I even doing. I had always thought of myself as a shy timid guy, so doing these confident and bold things is throwing my mind for a loop.
Since my UMS journal I did fall off the nofap/semen retention thing for a little while but I'm back on it now for around 3 weeks or so. Sometimes I really want to just do it, but I don't want to lose the energy boost I get. And also I don't release because I want to retain this energy for the sub to use it as fuel and push the results to the maximum.
