12-17-2021, 09:17 AM
This definitely has to do with fear, yesterday I couldn't sleep because fear was tormenting me with going deaf, It was pretty nasty I swear I was feeling sick and tinnitus was pretty loud, so now that leaves the question about why is so fixated on getting deaf, why can't be something else like cancer (I'm screwed either way haha), it appears the final boss wasn't the fear in my heart but that nasty fear, and it wasn't the first time I felt it, I can tell it's pure negativity which goal is more like harming rather than protecting, could this be some kind of psychopathic behavior? could this be related to the especific behavior of punish me when things get bad? No idea.
