12-11-2021, 04:01 PM
Day 100; listen day 5; cycle 15
Something new: no anxiety flashes before or during the loops. Just head pressure.
And something else new. Flashes of joy that almost brought tears to my eyes. And tears of joy are the opposite of pain.
I think that I built a shell around my deeper emotions, to keep from getting hurt, and E5 is working on that shell. So the flashes of joy are "leaks" from inside the shell. I think there's also some things inside that shell that need to be healed. Four and a half months left on this run. Lots still to do.
Something new: no anxiety flashes before or during the loops. Just head pressure.
And something else new. Flashes of joy that almost brought tears to my eyes. And tears of joy are the opposite of pain.
I think that I built a shell around my deeper emotions, to keep from getting hurt, and E5 is working on that shell. So the flashes of joy are "leaks" from inside the shell. I think there's also some things inside that shell that need to be healed. Four and a half months left on this run. Lots still to do.
