12-08-2021, 11:29 AM
Fear is kicking in again, since this morning is trying to trigger guess what MORE FEAR, my heart rate gets high, the part of the heart (chest) hurts once in a while, my breathing is unstable at times, feel I'm going to die, but I stopped caring since the first 2 hours and it's been reduced, now I'm just dizzy as usual, I'm wishing for fear to finally dissapear near the next days, also tried that mental exercise for tinnitus but I'm not the feel kind person and don't understand well that thing about balance (besides I don't know what the exact cause of tinnitus is, it first began with the right but then appeared on the left occasionally, and for some reason it gets louder at night), recently I can ignore it to the point it's not perceivable anymore, guess it's something like focus, didn't expect to suffer like this when I bought OFv3 or didn't expect my fear would be that much a pain in the ass and my behavior as well but if someone ask me if I would buy OF knowing everything so far I would say yes, also the timing is perfect, don't need to focus on other things for the moment, if I needed to go out and do things surely I will end up in the hospital.
