10-27-2021, 04:42 PM
(10-27-2021, 04:10 PM)Shannon Wrote:(10-27-2021, 03:58 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: Shannon I guess I never shared what laser focus and concentration did to me.
I have ADHD and was hoping laser focus and concentration would help tremendously. It did help but the amount of stress and tension that was caused on it made my neck hurt and gave me headaches.
That stress is most certainly on my end.
Also the most recent MHS made me raging mad for no conscious reason.
That tells me that for some reason, you are trying very hard to resist and fight what the programs are trying to do. Nobody else has reported these responses, so if you have any ideas why you're responding that way, it would be helpful for making adjustments.
I personally think that my manner of focusing was unhealthy and that I wasn't willing to adopt a new concept of focus but rather "translate" the instructions of the subliminal into one that fit my framework instead of changing it to what a healthy version of focus could look like. I had (at least I think it's past tense because of OF) a fear of allowing someone or something other than myself directing my steps that prevented a lot of the subliminal from getting through. To my logical self it looked like
External source of instruction = feelings of inability and fear of loss of control and therefore subliminals have to be ran through my current paradigm or I feel not good enough or fear that a sub will control me.
As I write this I think I personally struggled or possibly still struggle to trust subs and fully allow them to change me. I can see that belief running in the background of a lot of the subs I ran where I reached a plateau or flatline in progression of the goals. And I kind of feel like for the longest time that I did not feel good enough and came to depend on subs to try to be a functioning human all the while pushing back against their instruction because I felt inferior and incapable when I needed to be told something. Its a tangled web so I'm not sure I have it right.
As far as MHS is concerned I have no idea. I had an incident where I yelled at my mom for something very minor and that isn't me so I stopped before I could figure it out. I walked around low key irritated the whole time on that sub, which was a few weeks I think.
