Journal | Laser Focus & Concentration (5.75g - Type A/B/C/D Hybrid)

[Reznik]

Day 7

Morning

Last night I listened to one loop masked trickling stream in headphones and then at bed 3 loops of silent. I really think I shouldn't listen at bed. I was restless, took a long time to fall sleep and it seems like my tinnitus was louder than normal. Calibrated the volume to where I could barely hear the masked stream or ocean and I used FrequenSee app to make sure the volume wasn't too loud at the source but I wonder if it was still too "loud" in some way. Still trying to get this all dialed in.

Evening

Earlier in the day I did some self sabotage I know it. I made a mistake contacted [a toxic friend] and got distracted by that. I let myself get distracted and started watching pointless youtube videos instead of working on what I needed to do. I'm a bit disappointed in myself for having less motivation and focus today, however I'm still super happy about already being different than before I started the program. I still got things done but to a lesser degree than all the days previously. Am I on the other side of a peak? Am I experiencing resistance of some kind? Something I need to work through? I remember seeing a post about types of resistance on the forum. I'll check it out tomorrow. So now I'm wondering what to play at bed. If the stream is annoying and the silent makes it difficult to fall asleep, then what? Tonight I'll try a lower volume on the silent and see if that helps. If not, I have one more day of this cycle and I'll think about a solution during the off days.