Journal | Laser Focus & Concentration (5.75g - Type A/B/C/D Hybrid)

[Reznik]

Day 3

Morning
Well let me start out by saying last night I set the stream to play 4 loops and went to bed about 10:30. But I had started playing the first loop about 9:30. So I was one loop in before I fell asleep. I fell asleep reading a book. I was a bit concerned that the stream could stop playing if my laptop goes to sleep. I woke up at 1:30 am and I didn't hear anything. Had a lot of crazy dreams. I woke up for good about 6:30. I checked the webpage with the stream and the player was reset to the play position, and not paused somewhere in the middle so I'm assuming it played all 3 additional loops. I think if my laptop went to sleep it would have paused it on the website? Not sure. So I don't really know if it played successfully.

Well I had a strange experience while I was sitting on the toilet. I was staring at the wall and then my eyes shifted focus and I felt and saw a mild zoom effect. Ok I thought, this is what I read about in the description, this can happen. It wasn't alarming or anything. But I definitely know it happened. I tried staring at the wall again and consciously tried to duplicate it by changing my focus, but I couldn't.

Early Evening
In general though, all day I feel like I have the urge to jump into something and get lost in doing it. But I still don't know exactly what I want to do out of a list of so many things. But I have been knocking off a lot of little things. Before I started using the program, I would start something, get bored and then stop, and move on to something else. Now even though it's a "small" project, I stay with it until it's finished. So instead of 3 semi-complete tasks, I've got 3 fully-complete tasks. I'm liking it. Overall, I feel more of a sense of calm, and I can actually just free my mind of everything for about 10 seconds before something creeps in, but I expect that will improve with time. My brain doesn't feel so chaotic the last two days.

I'm actually starting to kick around a larger long term life plan and I honestly feel like not only do I want to start organizing things related to it, but I also have a feeling I could stay committed to see it to completion which is a new concept for me.