09-08-2021, 04:39 AM
Day 7; listen day 1; cycle 2
Continues from the below.
Mild diarrhea immediately before starting the day's loops.
Feeling of anxiety early in loop 1
I realized something in the afternoon. I am risk averse, especially in my finances. This is not a surprise, but it came to me as a clear statement of fact.
And that risk aversion is definitely rooted in fear. Fear of loss. Fear of failure, especially failure to provide for my family. Fear of poverty; I grew up in a poorer household.
And as I write this journal, I realize that I'm going to have to forgive my dad for that.
Headaches minor; only noticed one after my evening workout.
Sleep was restless. I had dreams, but I don't remember the details.
E5 is digging deep, quick.
Continues from the below.
Mild diarrhea immediately before starting the day's loops.
Feeling of anxiety early in loop 1
I realized something in the afternoon. I am risk averse, especially in my finances. This is not a surprise, but it came to me as a clear statement of fact.
And that risk aversion is definitely rooted in fear. Fear of loss. Fear of failure, especially failure to provide for my family. Fear of poverty; I grew up in a poorer household.
And as I write this journal, I realize that I'm going to have to forgive my dad for that.
Headaches minor; only noticed one after my evening workout.
Sleep was restless. I had dreams, but I don't remember the details.
E5 is digging deep, quick.
(09-07-2021, 04:28 AM)ReconGunner Wrote: Day 6; rest day 3; cycle 1:
During the day, same as previous, except no headaches at all.
Restless trying to get to sleep. Brief "pop-up" dreams, from Rule 4 stuff to dreaming about books I've read recently.
Then the significant one.
I dreamed that there was another, generic subliminal running overnight, and in the dream I was worried about the conflict between that one and E5, which I run during the day.
Whatever my subconscious is up to, it's gonna have to deal with E5.
