A New Way of Being - OF V3 5.75G

[Tao374]

Day 45, I feal like I’ve kind of plateaued lately. However, I think that is about to change. Last night I started having crazy dreams again that resulted in intense sweating. I have an irrational fear of snakes that I believe was programmed in me by my mother. One of the dreams I had I was on the pool deck of my childhood home. There was a snake slithering around. Eventually it started striking at me from different angles and positions. I was able to keep my cool pretty well and I had the thought that the fear removal module is really helping. However, my family showed up and picked up the snake and started throwing it at me repeatedly. The fear started escalating and escalating until I was freaking out and jumped on top of the table and was screaming like a crazy person. I have fairly intense phobia of snakes. I saw one a few days before while riding my skateboard while awake. It was laying on the sidewalk in front of me taking in the sun. I had the immediate reaction to stop on my board and not get any closer to it. As I was hoping it would move it slithered off. There was a reaction and a fear response in this scenario but I feel like it was mainly because it caught me off guard. I’m interested to see how OF helps me with my snake phobia. It would be nice to not have that fear anymore. It would be a testament to how powerful this sub seems to be but also not my drive for running it. I’m more interested in overcoming things that effect my life on a daily basis and prevent me from living my dreams.