(08-03-2021, 10:12 PM)Benjamin Wrote: I love my celery juice in the morning.. most people think it sounds disgusting but I actually crave it now.

(08-03-2021, 03:18 AM)Tao374 Wrote: I haven’t journaled in a long time but have found myself poking around the forum lately.  Thought it might be a good time to check in.  My last journal was for OF V2.  I didn’t run the sub for the recommended duration because I thought I could benefit more from E4.  However, a part of me wishes I would have kept going.  Upon completing my recent E4 run I decided to give OF V3 a chance.  So far it is a very interesting sub and seems like it will be worth keeping a journal.  Also, I have updated my signature to document my subliminal usage history for anyone that is interested.  I’ve been here for about 7 years and 6 of those years I have been actively running subs.
 
Before I start journaling about OF V3 I wanted to give some quick thought about E4 since I didn’t keep a journal.  I found it to be a vary taxing sub on me.  I often didn’t run it at the recommend number of loops a day.  In fact, in full accountability, I ran the sub for 9.25 months and only listened to approximately 77% of the number loops that the instructions would have had me complete in 8 months.  My original intent was to continue to listen until I had listened to the originally intended 840 loops.  However, after 9.25 months my subconscious seemed bored of the script, and I was becoming increasingly exhausted from it.  That being said, I did get some pleasant results from it.  The sub is titled Emotional Pain Relief and Healing Aid.  It did exactly that, I had a huge improvement in my emotional health.  I needed a real tune up in that department after getting out of a long-term relationship that hit me pretty hard.  However, I didn’t experience that much of the psychological/trauma healing that was listed in the description.  This may have happened if I listened to more loops per day or ran it longer.  Either way I’m running OF V3 now and seems to be helping with the psyche.
 
The OF series has had some of the most interesting descriptions on it’s store front pages.  What is fear?  What is life like without Fear?  Not what you expect?  I like this sub a lot so far, it is making very subtle but deep changes to me in just two weeks.  It is not building me up into super man or anything like that but removing a part of me that has always been there in the background that I need to outgrow while expanding my awareness of myself and how I operate at the same time.  Some examples:
 
1) I often have mental chatter that says I need to be rich or make a million dollars or something else similar.  Now increasing my net worth and being successful is important to me and I expect to continue to do so.  However, I had the realization that if I say these things, it is implying that I’m not good enough the way I am.  It is like I need the money and the success to validate myself.  I need to discontinue the idea that I need to be rich.  It is almost like it has become a prerequisite for happiness, women, freedom, etc..  A shift seems to be happing that is correcting this.  Hopefully this continues.

2)  I seem to be falling a sleep easier and spending more time in alpha/theta brainwave states throughout my day.

3) There seems to be insights coming about the classic idea of how people treat you isn’t a reflection of you but of them.  People that treat you poorly without respect or human decency isn’t always due to something that you are doing but usually a result of their own internal insecurities and programing.  I think most of us know this and/or have heard this before in one way or another but this sub seems to be drilling deep on this.  I have a particularly long-term friendship that is affected by this and instead of wanting to kill this person like I normally do (metaphorically speaking of course) I’m starting to see that he is just screwed up and that I should be less affected by it.
 
4) I seem to be having less self confidence concerns about my body.  No clothes on no problem lol.  Also, at the same time my motivation to workout is increasing.  I have been working out pretty hard lately. 
 
5) Also, my motivation to do other self-improvement activities like read or meditate have also increased.  I was binge watching a lot of Netflix/Prime during my E4 run, I felt pretty yin most of the time.  However, now I lose interest in watching TV pretty quickly and start looking for other more productive things to do.  Also seem to be having a hard time staying focused on video games too.
 
6) I seem to be less needy.  Almost have no interest in finding a new girlfriend/whatever at the moment.  This is usually an overwhelming desire/need that can’t be silenced.  This could be a good change if it continues.  In theory this should also increase my attractiveness when I do want to.  I was walking through one of my favorite local restaurants the other day and it was like everyone of both sexes were staring at me.  I’m like I just want food why is this happening.
 
I’m sure many more new things will come and things that I’m not remembering right now will be added to my journal soon.  I think this is going to be a great sub.  I really like that Shannon has used a zero-silence ratio on this sub and you can absorb so much in a 1-hour loop.  I usually want to run subs less than the required usage but this seems different and will probably use more.  I had already had the urge to start back on my loops a day early so I did a 3 day on cycle and it wasn’t to overwhelming.  I might look into increasing the number of loops over time as I see some users are doing.  I’ve always been about finding the optimal balance between not overwhelming my mental capacities and moving forward.

(08-12-2021, 06:37 AM)RTBoss Wrote: Sounds like you're doing great, Tao!  Keep up the good work.  We all get in ruts.  It's attitudes like yours that will enable you to grow more, despite them.  If you're at a low, just think about how much higher you will go!  Exciting times.