08-31-2021, 01:29 AM
So OF was definately needed today.. got into a couple of confrontations and stood my ground. The first one I was getting a little worked up and the adrenaline hit me but I was able to stand my ground, same with the second one. Really both were unavoidable and the good thing was when I seen it coming I chose to confront it.
Was hanging out with some friends outside and a random woman come near us for a smoke and I started chatting to her which isn't something I usually do now so that's good. I ended up sitting with her and eventually she come over to the group and then even got drinks from her car and handed them out.
I started to get tired and shut down which happens sometimes and then I start to get quieter. But I did notice when I stood next to her a few times the big smiles she was giving me. I did think of getting her number but she smokes and that's a no for me now.
Also when I was first talking to her I was a little edgy, like not being directly sexual to her, but some of the stuff I brought up and it went down well.
Went for a walk with a friend a few hours later. Reflexively said hi to 2 cute girls walking past, then after that another one said hi to me. This was on a walking track where people tend to say hi more, but still it doesn't usually happen much to me, especially from a cute girl.
Also yesterday going into the supermarket a girl who's body looked allright said "Hello" to me randomly when I walked past, she had a mask on so I had no idea if I knew her, didn't recognize her voice. I did answer and said "Hey, how's it going?" and she said "good" and walked off. Though I was basically there confused if I knew her or not, and also the feeling of 'is this a random woman saying hello to me' that made me feel weird too. Yes I know it's a good thing, but these fears aren't logical as you guys know.
Was hanging out with some friends outside and a random woman come near us for a smoke and I started chatting to her which isn't something I usually do now so that's good. I ended up sitting with her and eventually she come over to the group and then even got drinks from her car and handed them out.
I started to get tired and shut down which happens sometimes and then I start to get quieter. But I did notice when I stood next to her a few times the big smiles she was giving me. I did think of getting her number but she smokes and that's a no for me now.
Also when I was first talking to her I was a little edgy, like not being directly sexual to her, but some of the stuff I brought up and it went down well.
Went for a walk with a friend a few hours later. Reflexively said hi to 2 cute girls walking past, then after that another one said hi to me. This was on a walking track where people tend to say hi more, but still it doesn't usually happen much to me, especially from a cute girl.
Also yesterday going into the supermarket a girl who's body looked allright said "Hello" to me randomly when I walked past, she had a mask on so I had no idea if I knew her, didn't recognize her voice. I did answer and said "Hey, how's it going?" and she said "good" and walked off. Though I was basically there confused if I knew her or not, and also the feeling of 'is this a random woman saying hello to me' that made me feel weird too. Yes I know it's a good thing, but these fears aren't logical as you guys know.
