Cycle 26
Day 3/4 (94 days in)
3 loops hybrid 3 days on 1 day off
Looks like I’m halfway through the program
-had a huge physical tightness when I woke up at the start of the cycle and i had a hunch to increase the loops to 3 and it seems to have alleviated it.
-my sister was talking to me at the start of the loop about financial freedom and the freedom from financial debt. It sparked a ton of fear that i can’t label. It feels like a walk that’s preventing me from even considering it is possible. Sounds like UMS may be my next sub despite also wanting to run the AM+SM
-been trying to cultivate my inner child and allowing myself to feel emotions such as love and trying to actively decouple the association of falling in love with hurting people and myself. Due to past traumas making me associate it together.
-at the start of this cycle and the past cycle, it feels like I’m losing my mind. I haven’t been myself so to speak. I feel like I’m lost and regressing as I’m noticing I’m revisiting old interests in highschool and falling back to being a bit of a recluse.
Edit:
-porn use use is noticeably infrequent now.
Day 3/4 (94 days in)
3 loops hybrid 3 days on 1 day off
Looks like I’m halfway through the program
-had a huge physical tightness when I woke up at the start of the cycle and i had a hunch to increase the loops to 3 and it seems to have alleviated it.
-my sister was talking to me at the start of the loop about financial freedom and the freedom from financial debt. It sparked a ton of fear that i can’t label. It feels like a walk that’s preventing me from even considering it is possible. Sounds like UMS may be my next sub despite also wanting to run the AM+SM
-been trying to cultivate my inner child and allowing myself to feel emotions such as love and trying to actively decouple the association of falling in love with hurting people and myself. Due to past traumas making me associate it together.
-at the start of this cycle and the past cycle, it feels like I’m losing my mind. I haven’t been myself so to speak. I feel like I’m lost and regressing as I’m noticing I’m revisiting old interests in highschool and falling back to being a bit of a recluse.
Edit:
-porn use use is noticeably infrequent now.
Phase 1: The Foundation
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
