08-15-2021, 03:43 PM
2 nights ago had a dream when I was being ridiculed for talking to girls.. woke up thinking about how so called 'friends' used to do that in the past. I'm not friends with them anymore.
And last night and especially today having some very strong insecurities and feelings of 'nobody is attracted to me ever' which isn't true.. funny how it went from 2 days ago getting checked out and feeling strong to this.
Yesterday hanging out with friends, for a while I was really quiet and just felt awkward and weird and just felt like sitting there and looking around, felt really 'blocked'. This is unlike me now, i'm not really a loud person but i'm fairly comfortable socially now and have no problems talking like I had in the past, yesterday was the most i've felt weird and quite like that than in a long time. Another friend come and I went and talked to him and then was a bit more relaxed again.
And last night and especially today having some very strong insecurities and feelings of 'nobody is attracted to me ever' which isn't true.. funny how it went from 2 days ago getting checked out and feeling strong to this.
Yesterday hanging out with friends, for a while I was really quiet and just felt awkward and weird and just felt like sitting there and looking around, felt really 'blocked'. This is unlike me now, i'm not really a loud person but i'm fairly comfortable socially now and have no problems talking like I had in the past, yesterday was the most i've felt weird and quite like that than in a long time. Another friend come and I went and talked to him and then was a bit more relaxed again.
