I took a 3rd night off because I felt like I really needed it, which is the longest rest i've had so far since starting. I had a dream last night with a snake in it and woke up feeling a fear of snakes.. so no question what that was working on cos I hate snakes.
I hate this 'snapback' kind of effect, I guess it's similar to the tidal effect.
Last night I was feeling really good, feeling like I look good, that today i'm going to go and hang out with friends and it will be really good and would be doing stuff half the day and enjoying it, feeling like things are okay.
Yeah last night some sabotage come up and it kind of 'snapped back' and today i'm feeling insecure, pretty down, almost feeling like I don't want to leave the house but I still will cos I know it'll be okay.
Plus I looked at some things this morning that really brought me down and triggered fear, reading too much fear based or media stuff can do that and the days I look at less of it I feel better. It doesn't start off the morning in a good place if I look at it early on.
Feeling light headed and alot of sadness coming up. I know i'll feel better when I go out somewhere in the sun.
I'm also suspecting some resistance, because thinking about it right now I don't want to listen tonight either. But after 3 nights off and how i'm feeling, it seems like it's resistance in this case.
I hate this 'snapback' kind of effect, I guess it's similar to the tidal effect.
Last night I was feeling really good, feeling like I look good, that today i'm going to go and hang out with friends and it will be really good and would be doing stuff half the day and enjoying it, feeling like things are okay.
Yeah last night some sabotage come up and it kind of 'snapped back' and today i'm feeling insecure, pretty down, almost feeling like I don't want to leave the house but I still will cos I know it'll be okay.
Plus I looked at some things this morning that really brought me down and triggered fear, reading too much fear based or media stuff can do that and the days I look at less of it I feel better. It doesn't start off the morning in a good place if I look at it early on.
Feeling light headed and alot of sadness coming up. I know i'll feel better when I go out somewhere in the sun.
I'm also suspecting some resistance, because thinking about it right now I don't want to listen tonight either. But after 3 nights off and how i'm feeling, it seems like it's resistance in this case.
