08-03-2021, 06:19 PM
[OF v3 - Day 13] – Hazy yet confident
Yow! 6 loops last night.
Woken up by knocking on door. Got around 6 hours of sleep.
Bed felt so amazing. Finally got up to make lunch.
After usual lunch I felt extremely tired.
Took a 20 min nap that turned into 60 min.
The bed felt reeeeaaaaally good and I was wringing my body that felt amazing as well, especially my back and my legs there were rushes of orgasms.
I thought my body was well rested as I already had taken 2 days off from working out but it just felt like the right thing I needed today.
Got woken up again by a call to come earlier to work as it was set to be very busy.
Walked through my day with my attention very close to myself and not looking at the same things for long.
Also I felt no emotions so I gave much less of a fvck.
On the other hand I was very present to the moment of where I put my attention.
So I would look at a person and see them more for who they are rather than what they want me to see or what my mind had of assumptions.
Customers were reacting more engaged.
My stroll through the city felt very different than the previous weeks.
The girls I hit eye contact with felt more genuine. So if she was not interested or she had assumptions or she was shy, I could sense those things just by how she reacts after hitting eye contact.
And remember I felt no emotions.
So it didn't affect me how she reacted to me.
The prettiest girl 9/10 held steady and long eye contact with me as I walked past. Just prior, I hit a quick eye contact with her blonde friend who looked away half shy/assumptiouish.
I've been often reflecting, thinking back, why it's nearly always the most beautiful girls who are interested in me rather than their less attractive friend.
Better fvcking give less of a fvck and go sniper on the hottest girls. They just inspire more in me...
I have a limiting belief about being courteous to everyone. Especially if they are only 2.
Anyway, the walk through the city was cool. It was a spontaneous decision as I originally wanted to get home early and sleep bc of the weird sleep pattern I had and half of the day was gone.
But something in me told me to keep the habit up.
Although I still didn't talk with anyone, I felt in my own world and I could sense many of the things the previous me did in the last two weeks that brought out fear and self-defeating thoughts.
It's a log about focus, breath and attention.
One thought that I'm entertaining and that has helped in aiding to see through the facades is this:
Everyone is fragments of me.
Keep following your dreams!
-LM
Yow! 6 loops last night.
Woken up by knocking on door. Got around 6 hours of sleep.
Bed felt so amazing. Finally got up to make lunch.
After usual lunch I felt extremely tired.
Took a 20 min nap that turned into 60 min.
The bed felt reeeeaaaaally good and I was wringing my body that felt amazing as well, especially my back and my legs there were rushes of orgasms.
I thought my body was well rested as I already had taken 2 days off from working out but it just felt like the right thing I needed today.
Got woken up again by a call to come earlier to work as it was set to be very busy.
Walked through my day with my attention very close to myself and not looking at the same things for long.
Also I felt no emotions so I gave much less of a fvck.
On the other hand I was very present to the moment of where I put my attention.
So I would look at a person and see them more for who they are rather than what they want me to see or what my mind had of assumptions.
Customers were reacting more engaged.
My stroll through the city felt very different than the previous weeks.
The girls I hit eye contact with felt more genuine. So if she was not interested or she had assumptions or she was shy, I could sense those things just by how she reacts after hitting eye contact.
And remember I felt no emotions.
So it didn't affect me how she reacted to me.
The prettiest girl 9/10 held steady and long eye contact with me as I walked past. Just prior, I hit a quick eye contact with her blonde friend who looked away half shy/assumptiouish.
I've been often reflecting, thinking back, why it's nearly always the most beautiful girls who are interested in me rather than their less attractive friend.
Better fvcking give less of a fvck and go sniper on the hottest girls. They just inspire more in me...
I have a limiting belief about being courteous to everyone. Especially if they are only 2.
Anyway, the walk through the city was cool. It was a spontaneous decision as I originally wanted to get home early and sleep bc of the weird sleep pattern I had and half of the day was gone.
But something in me told me to keep the habit up.
Although I still didn't talk with anyone, I felt in my own world and I could sense many of the things the previous me did in the last two weeks that brought out fear and self-defeating thoughts.
It's a log about focus, breath and attention.
One thought that I'm entertaining and that has helped in aiding to see through the facades is this:
Everyone is fragments of me.
Keep following your dreams!
-LM
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
