08-01-2021, 04:55 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-01-2021, 04:56 PM by LionMonkey.)
[OF v3 - Day 11] – Clarity, kindness & close to myself
Wassup!
Felt very withdrawn today as a form of regaining clarity of thinking.
Although it was busy at the business today, non-stop, I didn't speak much bc. I just didn't felt like it.
Have been thinking about what I'm doing in life, where I'm headed.
And as well about if what I'm doing in different areas of life, is the best way to do it.
Then I realized that I have been too dependent, mentally, on something outside of me to give me strength and clarity to understand the world and myself.
Which resulted in the conclusion that nobody knows everything. Everyone is just trying even if it appears they got everything figured out.
TRUST YOURSELF. ACCEPT WHERE YOU ARE, BE GRATEFUL, MOMENT TO MOMENT, FOR WHAT YOU HAVE AND MOVE STEADILY TOWARDS YOUR DREAMS. IGNORE THE NOISES AND KEEP DEVELOPING CLARITY OF MIND TO WORK SMARTER AND BE SMARTER ABOUT LIFE.
Yes... that pretty much describes the shift I'm having now.
The nightly meditation have already helped a lot in coming to that conclusion.
Also helps with keeping myself present to the moment.
I had forgotten the kindness people have shown and given me in the past and I guess I had become a bit jaded. Although I still feel like my time and resources are precious and I am protective of them.
This happened as a result of me, seeing my hard-working pops being taken advantage of as he has a hard time saying no and therefore I've developed a sense to be the one who says no faster and more firmly. He also gives out freely more often than I like and that adds to the protective factor as well.
But kindness can really touch my heart and it has touched my heart to tears many times in the past.
I want to be kinder but I feel it is not high on my priority right now. Probably because I have felt I lost a big chunk of my teenage years on binge video gaming and I'm catching up now.
I went through today close to myself, not putting a lot of effort in engaging with customers but they were reacting more to me than usual.
Last night was OFF, tonight we go for 6-7 loops on our 3rd cycle.
Finish Passionfruit Drink --> Meditate --> Short Comedy --> Sleep
-LM
Wassup!
Felt very withdrawn today as a form of regaining clarity of thinking.
Although it was busy at the business today, non-stop, I didn't speak much bc. I just didn't felt like it.
Have been thinking about what I'm doing in life, where I'm headed.
And as well about if what I'm doing in different areas of life, is the best way to do it.
Then I realized that I have been too dependent, mentally, on something outside of me to give me strength and clarity to understand the world and myself.
Which resulted in the conclusion that nobody knows everything. Everyone is just trying even if it appears they got everything figured out.
TRUST YOURSELF. ACCEPT WHERE YOU ARE, BE GRATEFUL, MOMENT TO MOMENT, FOR WHAT YOU HAVE AND MOVE STEADILY TOWARDS YOUR DREAMS. IGNORE THE NOISES AND KEEP DEVELOPING CLARITY OF MIND TO WORK SMARTER AND BE SMARTER ABOUT LIFE.
Yes... that pretty much describes the shift I'm having now.
The nightly meditation have already helped a lot in coming to that conclusion.
Also helps with keeping myself present to the moment.
I had forgotten the kindness people have shown and given me in the past and I guess I had become a bit jaded. Although I still feel like my time and resources are precious and I am protective of them.
This happened as a result of me, seeing my hard-working pops being taken advantage of as he has a hard time saying no and therefore I've developed a sense to be the one who says no faster and more firmly. He also gives out freely more often than I like and that adds to the protective factor as well.
But kindness can really touch my heart and it has touched my heart to tears many times in the past.
I want to be kinder but I feel it is not high on my priority right now. Probably because I have felt I lost a big chunk of my teenage years on binge video gaming and I'm catching up now.
I went through today close to myself, not putting a lot of effort in engaging with customers but they were reacting more to me than usual.
Last night was OFF, tonight we go for 6-7 loops on our 3rd cycle.
Finish Passionfruit Drink --> Meditate --> Short Comedy --> Sleep
-LM
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
