Day 73/180 ON #2- Friday 30 July - *Hybrid loop 5 cycle 1* - part 2
3) Met my friend and walked in the awesome sun and heat for around 3hours, covering between 4-5miles and over 10k steps. Remarkable but he had a goal of 3miles and I just went with it.
4) Whilst talking he brought up how he has emailed companies/organisations for work experience etc, I don't know I was fearing it and amazed that I had such fear and yet he didn't. I think the fear of failure it is indeed.
5) I got home and realised this fear is stopping me and well I hope OF sorts this bitch out man! I enjoyed the walk though and by evening (after shower and eaten) I felt ok and good and thought I could just go for a walk again tomorrow so will see.
My exercise goals did include getting 10k steps a day so suddenly its not that unreachable though I thought I would need weeks for my legs to get used to it.
6) After eating and chilling the youtube channel I follow was going to do a live stream tonight but decided to do a warm up stream suddenly so was on there for 1.5hours after which I realised I have around 2hours before the real stream so I studied.
I realised I'm enjoying the studying now, because I'm using online FUN videos rather than reading boring lectures and studying by gamifying the study too so its not a chore or tedious or boring or scary.
7) I took a break from the study to come and update this.
Conclusion for me is that fear of failure and applying for work or work shadowing - scary!
3) Met my friend and walked in the awesome sun and heat for around 3hours, covering between 4-5miles and over 10k steps. Remarkable but he had a goal of 3miles and I just went with it.
4) Whilst talking he brought up how he has emailed companies/organisations for work experience etc, I don't know I was fearing it and amazed that I had such fear and yet he didn't. I think the fear of failure it is indeed.
5) I got home and realised this fear is stopping me and well I hope OF sorts this bitch out man! I enjoyed the walk though and by evening (after shower and eaten) I felt ok and good and thought I could just go for a walk again tomorrow so will see.
My exercise goals did include getting 10k steps a day so suddenly its not that unreachable though I thought I would need weeks for my legs to get used to it.
6) After eating and chilling the youtube channel I follow was going to do a live stream tonight but decided to do a warm up stream suddenly so was on there for 1.5hours after which I realised I have around 2hours before the real stream so I studied.
I realised I'm enjoying the studying now, because I'm using online FUN videos rather than reading boring lectures and studying by gamifying the study too so its not a chore or tedious or boring or scary.
7) I took a break from the study to come and update this.
Conclusion for me is that fear of failure and applying for work or work shadowing - scary!
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
