Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 5

[Jake2015]

@Shannon Hi mate, todays listening was my 10th day of 3 loops a day of OF3, or in another way, I'm 2.5 cycles in (2 off days remaining and 3rd cycle will be completed).

I wake up and its as if nothing was even played. I don't know if i am supposed to be feeling anything at all to reflect that ive been listening and that its working and this I think is making me impatient and adding to my doubts of execution/stonewalling further.

Shall I increase the intensity and if so how do you suggest and if not why not please?

Today was my 49th day in total so far and this doubt is more on my mind today than any other day. Im seeking signs im executing or that having played the sub gives me some indication but im yet unusure.

Some have said to me that sometimes its too subtle and only over time will it become apparent once the changes are observed; is that the case with this sub as I dont want to reach 180 days only then to assess whats worked and hasn't. I am giving as much data in my journals as I can for you but I seem to get others saying im executing and then I get high off this and then fall again to wonder am i when theres no clear indication for me.

thank you

Jake, go through the list of resistance tactics and see if you can identify which one or ones you're exhibiting.

@Shannon thanks bro! As my reply above this to @callie I did wonder if it is resistance but not sure even though its sure indicators it is. 

ill continue as I am going then. Is resistance a sign im executing or close to it and not stonewalling etc? - just asking for some reassurance I think. Thank you.

Logically, resistance is a response to a stimulus, is it not?  And why would there be a response, never mind a resistance response, if something were not happening to respond to and resist?

Don't just blow this off.  Go through the list of forms of resistance and identify the one or ones you are exhibiting and then tell me what you found.

ok I have pen and paper ready to make any notes as I read through the resistance page mate. 

True I was just unsure if it is for sure resistance or not and if it is then does that mean im executing rather than stonewalling and thus would increasing the intensity be a better strategy knowing my history of stonewalling.

I think im fearing that I "maybe" stonewalling. I started the sub relaxed and chilled out and now since im unsure myself.  I think its the big fear of not finding that "sweetspot" that will help smash through my resistances. Im eager and willing to try more loops etc.

Anyway the types of resistance I think are me (please correct me if im wrong) and currently exhibiting are: 

Type 1 Stonewalling - well this has been me in the past based on your assessment. Right now am I stonewalling subconsciously I dont know for sure. Sure I get that if im showing resistance then im not stonewalling.

Possibly Type 2. I mean there have been times where during the 49 days ive wondered was that me executing or just my imagination. Nothing concrete has occured as yet for me to know or even daily or weekly in terms of effects for me to say ok there is a trend. Then I read journals by others on say hybrid and think wow they're so certain they're executing etc.

Type 3 I think did happen to me. some days ago it I think did happen. what ive now realised is once I update my journal with a post I forget what happened a day or days before. That could be due to my personality or my short term memory not fully consolidating due to my erratic sleep regime. 

So im upto type 13 so far in my reading and taking a pause to explain that I may be type 13. Im aware that my conscious thoughts are not 'will the sub work' (I believe it CAN work) but my thoughts are is it working YET, by now? If it is working and im not consciously seeing it fine but its not that the sub cant work but is it working yet or do I need to increase the intensity. I know you said that resistance would be to decrease the intensity but nothing in my mind has said do that but to increase it so that I CAN execute it quickly. I think reaching day 49 has scared me what if I reach day 60-180 and not fully executed or just executed a blip. This all is of course due to my years of history as you are aware so im just eager to execute this fully and quickly. 

Ive read them all and so far on this sub I cant see any other applying to me at this current stage.

Ive replied to samba below and realised I should reiterate my thoughts arent will the sub work or can it work for me but that maybe I need to increase the intensity again. At the release of the sub you did say increase intensity and if need be get to 3 loops and then after that seek advice i think if you want to increase more. Since im at 3 loops and wondering if its doing anything then perhaps I should increase it further, thus why I asked if so how (as I dont know whether you would say increase to 4 loops, or stay on 3 and increase from 2 day on to 3 day on), but you've maintained dont change at all. Hope that made sense.