Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 5

[Jake2015]

@Shannon Hi mate, todays listening was my 10th day of 3 loops a day of OF3, or in another way, I'm 2.5 cycles in (2 off days remaining and 3rd cycle will be completed).

I wake up and its as if nothing was even played. I don't know if i am supposed to be feeling anything at all to reflect that ive been listening and that its working and this I think is making me impatient and adding to my doubts of execution/stonewalling further.

Shall I increase the intensity and if so how do you suggest and if not why not please?

Today was my 49th day in total so far and this doubt is more on my mind today than any other day. Im seeking signs im executing or that having played the sub gives me some indication but im yet unusure.

Some have said to me that sometimes its too subtle and only over time will it become apparent once the changes are observed; is that the case with this sub as I dont want to reach 180 days only then to assess whats worked and hasn't. I am giving as much data in my journals as I can for you but I seem to get others saying im executing and then I get high off this and then fall again to wonder am i when theres no clear indication for me.

thank you

Have you ever considered that the doubt you have is a sign of resistance? And the more you engage in those doubtful thoughts the more you are blocking yourself from executing.

Whenever I doubt I try my best to not get sucked into those thoughts. Its hard but you can train yourself to be better at it.

And lastly. The need you have to change as fast as possible is likely going to have the opposite effect. Its not healthy to force things. 

Be patient with yourself. It takes time to change. Wish you good luck

Hey Callie thanks for the reply and message appreciate it.

Yeh resistance is what I was thinking too but I had to get it off my chest and on here otherwise it would drive me nuts! 

If it is resistance then its just so crazy how subtle it is, its making me doubt without making me do anything but doubt and fear - frickn ridiculous and if its not resistance then its just me wondering am I here yet...at the execution mark.

Thank you for the suggestion and advice ill try my best to heed these. thank you