Day 42/180 OFF #1- Tues 29 June - part 2
1) Ive been productive today. Not scary academic studying (lets not jump the gun and get carried away here) however I had a to do list for today of 2 items, and first was done then the 2nd is still being done (11.25pm current time) but ive been at it all day.
There have been moments where I lost momentum but then I got back onto it again.
A stark contrast to yesterday which made me wonder that could the irritation have been due to me sitting at my desk for 3hours (3 loops length) to not obscure the sub as it played on my phone and this sitting in 1 place caused my irritation perhaps? Maybe but nevertheless today has been less irritating and whenever I lost momentum I got up and moved and did something else then returned or simply allowed my distraction to take my mind away from the mental fatigue.
Either way i also have a self imposed deadline on my mind and this has caused me to be much more pro-active today but that has been possible due to the lack of chaos as felt yesterday.
2) I havent felt anything else except at 1 or 2 times today some jealousy due to some news from friends. I wont share the news here that is irrelevant but I noticed the jealousy and no idea if its from fear or not.
Addendum:
Im kinda losing the motivation now a little to carry on. I feel like the ratio of focus : distraction, has flipped for me now and im unable to focus as long lol.
1) Ive been productive today. Not scary academic studying (lets not jump the gun and get carried away here) however I had a to do list for today of 2 items, and first was done then the 2nd is still being done (11.25pm current time) but ive been at it all day.
There have been moments where I lost momentum but then I got back onto it again.
A stark contrast to yesterday which made me wonder that could the irritation have been due to me sitting at my desk for 3hours (3 loops length) to not obscure the sub as it played on my phone and this sitting in 1 place caused my irritation perhaps? Maybe but nevertheless today has been less irritating and whenever I lost momentum I got up and moved and did something else then returned or simply allowed my distraction to take my mind away from the mental fatigue.
Either way i also have a self imposed deadline on my mind and this has caused me to be much more pro-active today but that has been possible due to the lack of chaos as felt yesterday.
2) I havent felt anything else except at 1 or 2 times today some jealousy due to some news from friends. I wont share the news here that is irrelevant but I noticed the jealousy and no idea if its from fear or not.
Addendum:
Im kinda losing the motivation now a little to carry on. I feel like the ratio of focus : distraction, has flipped for me now and im unable to focus as long lol.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
