06-29-2021, 10:40 AM
Oh boy, did I enter a rabbit hole if there ever was one.
So, searching for the answer for the pressing question "what should I run next?" I had this glorious thought of browsing my old journals. Good thing I keep them and I even made a handy summary at some point. That was 5 years ago, since then I run a myriad of LTU, DMSI and probably more I cannot remember now so no part 2 I'm afraid. At any rate while skimming through these several realizations came.
First I was wrong. I was running AM refresher together with BIATBW, not ASC like I thought I did. That makes a lot of sense, but also it means I cannot run this combo now as my last AM run was years ago. Still, maybe me thinking of ASC in response to my response to that radio silence may be serendipitous thinking yet!
Second, Oh Man did I change. When I was writing these entries I was young student, an impressionable virgin. Now I'm so much more mature, for better or for worse. I'm not sure if I've changed for all the better but it cannot be denied that my transition from young adult to simply adult was starker than I thought. Me reading these posts made me chuckle a little sometimes because how I was trying to boast here. I'm curious how I will respond to this journal in years time.
This makes me wanna run AM all the more. I wonder how older me would respond to the program. And, I won't gonna lie, I miss AM and everything around it. AM made me research a lot when it comes to self-development. And like I've mentioned this is something I neglected these past months. I don't regret that, not particularly as the results turned out to be good, better than I anticipated. But now that the dust is settling there is an opportunity go back in that direction. And, let's be honest, it should be easier this time compared to 5 years ago.
So, searching for the answer for the pressing question "what should I run next?" I had this glorious thought of browsing my old journals. Good thing I keep them and I even made a handy summary at some point. That was 5 years ago, since then I run a myriad of LTU, DMSI and probably more I cannot remember now so no part 2 I'm afraid. At any rate while skimming through these several realizations came.
First I was wrong. I was running AM refresher together with BIATBW, not ASC like I thought I did. That makes a lot of sense, but also it means I cannot run this combo now as my last AM run was years ago. Still, maybe me thinking of ASC in response to my response to that radio silence may be serendipitous thinking yet!
Second, Oh Man did I change. When I was writing these entries I was young student, an impressionable virgin. Now I'm so much more mature, for better or for worse. I'm not sure if I've changed for all the better but it cannot be denied that my transition from young adult to simply adult was starker than I thought. Me reading these posts made me chuckle a little sometimes because how I was trying to boast here. I'm curious how I will respond to this journal in years time.
This makes me wanna run AM all the more. I wonder how older me would respond to the program. And, I won't gonna lie, I miss AM and everything around it. AM made me research a lot when it comes to self-development. And like I've mentioned this is something I neglected these past months. I don't regret that, not particularly as the results turned out to be good, better than I anticipated. But now that the dust is settling there is an opportunity go back in that direction. And, let's be honest, it should be easier this time compared to 5 years ago.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
