Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 5

[Shannon]

Shannon, can you help please?

Ive finished my second cycle of MLS. Im using MLS to improve my day trading. Day trading can be frustrating especially when there is no progress and you dont seem to be learning anything which was/is my situation - hence why i purchased MLS.

However frustrating my experience has been, the last 2 weeks my anger has entered another level. I am the hulk right now, I could quite easily smash everything in my apartment. Of course, ive never had such extreme anger / frustration. I am a little hot tempered then the average person, but definitely not the violent breaking kind - i dont think ive even broken anything.

I do know that learning and frustration and anger are polar opposites, you cannot learn in such a state. therefore my question is, am i being a d!ckh$$d or is this some kind of resistance from MLS?

If I am being a d!ckh$$d, ill find a way to solve it.
But if it is MLS resistance, how can i deal with it? Listen everyday for example? Force this sh!t out.

Thanks Shannon.

ps. fyi a small report I dont feel any other resistance. Im not eating more like others have reported. Im not tired, ive used other programs where i needed to go to sleep every day in the afternoon. Not feeling that w MLS. First cycle i was super motivated, second cycle motivation was/is stabilised. Small pockets of happy moments. General depression associated with my trading seems to be reduced compared to 2 weeks although, not entirely sure if that MLS related or just dumb luck.

What you're experiencing is almost certainly resistance.  When you get an anger response, you will usually (but not always) be getting that response because you are pushing too hard.  Sometimes, you are pushing to accomplish something that is centrally against one of your most primal fears, and it is forcing that fear to be dealt with and triggering massive resistance because of that fear.  

If it is the former case (pushing too hard), then you want to lower perceptory pressure.  If it is the latter case (pushing to overcome a central fear, but without enough force to overcome resistance), then you want to increase perceptory pressure.

Can you tell which case it is?  Is your subconscious getting mad because you're being too aggressive in the way the goal is being approached? (Former case) Or perhaps because it is convinced that the goal is "impossible to achieve", or requires facing one or more of your deepest fears? (latter case)