Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 5

[Shannon]

Shannon, since you have been working with resistance and faulty beliefs for so long, I'm seeking your advice on how to correct some beliefs.

I have realized that I repeat this certain behavior over and over and over. It seems as if I enjoy the pain of suffering or it seems as I believe that success will be more joyful if and only if I suffer, even if for a moment.

Let me give you a simple example to understand my problem better.

Let's assume that I have lost my car key in the house. While looking for it, I get a great hunch that the key is most likely to be under the couch pillow. While the most reasonable thing to do is immediately look under the pillow, I will instead delay this, I will be looking else where and leaving looking under the pillow for last option or close to last (about to lose hope)

Now this might be simple one and not a big deal, but this is only a result of something (belief or whatever) and similar events keep on happening. Even on a larger scale, like pursing success in xx.

This is getting annoying now.

What do you suggest? Am I believing that I don't deserve the desired result? (success or finding the car key)

Or am I just delaying to experience greater joy?

I'm thinking it's the latter, but why do I believe by suffering and only by suffering I can experience joy.

I hope you can Shedd some lights on this...

In addition does your subs like OF, UMS address this matter? Or this type of resistance?

Thank you for your time

What you're describing is almost certainly a faulty belief picked up in childhood by internalizing a saying or "common wisdom" that you heard, which you latched onto as true, and may or may not have misunderstood.  "Something like, the harder you work for it, the sweeter the reward." But for it to be true, you have to make it true, and thus, change your behavior to do so.  If it really was true, you wouldn't have to change to make it true.  The issue here is that the part of your awareness that has accepted this belief as true and is acting to make it true is not logical.  It doesn't understand that joy can (and should) be experienced without having to suffer first.  

I don't think this belief would be based on fear.  The subs most likely to deal with this would be E4 and LTUv6.  But it will depend on specifics as to what the belief is, what it's based on and what other beliefs it interacts with for me to know for sure if it will be dealt with by those programs.  I would say it is probably very likely to be dealt with my LTU and moderately likely to be dealt with by E4.

I would spend some time trying to find the experience or experiences that created such a belief.