02-12-2021, 01:35 PM
@Shannon I am not sure if this is appropriate to ask. Apologies if not.
I wanted to ask you if there is anything related to black magic/occult stuffs or something similar you use in any of your subliminal or any products? I am asking this because I don't want to involve in any magickal stuffs because of my personal preference. Another reason this question comes to my mind is because several friends of mine reported that they are using subliminals from a certain company and that the company uses occultish stuffs in their subliminals, and they are very open about it. I mean they publicly say they do. That info brings doubt into my mind that if all the subliminals are made that way.
Although I am not very religious, I don't want to involve into anything that has little bits of magickal rituals or similar thing. That's why clearing that doubt is very important for me.
BTW, I took a long break from subliminals and lots have happened in the meantime. The number of subliminal creators has increased drastically (on YouTube and as online company). I doubt their quality though. When I discovered IML in 2016 there were several companies. Anyway, life didn't change much for me. I think I am inside of a bubble which is bringing me the similar scenarios again and again. Let me elaborate a bit.
I posted about my condition here like 2 years ago. And I am guilty of not following your advice.
Back in 2018, I became suicidal. I became so depressed that I wanted to suicide. Why?
1. For some reason, all the women I like friend zone me. I confessed to some women I like and all rejected me and they said "they thought we were just friends"
Although I joined PUA world like many, and tried to solve everything logically, tried to act like an alpha (because I think I am beta, weak, immature), honestly, I couldn't. And worse, I keep attracting same kind of women who will friend zone me and create huge depression in my mind. It is like Shannon's cycle. Mine comes like every 2 year or so.
2. I believe I have kept so many emotions suppressed inside me, and tried to hide all that now they wanna come out. how do I know? Many imaginary scenes automatically play inside my head with sudden outburst of emotion. Let me give an example. My mother is very very strict. She is like alpha in my family, she even dominates my father. My father is honestly weak, beta kind. So since childhood, my mom restricted me from many things. She told me seduction and sex are very very bad, terrible sin. She kept me home while other boys socialized and played outside. She still wants me to be in complete control of her. and many other things. So, after joining PUA, I realized that she programmed me to fail today with women. I probably have deep shame, guilt towards seduction and sex, so I avoid them subconsciously. Now I have huge anger towards her. I mentally imagine fighting with her and even killing her. Huge emotion comes up too, as if its happening in reality. Maybe my emotions want to come up and get released, but I am stuck.
3. Although my mom restricted me in many ways, I secretly developed terrible porn and masturbation addiction. I can't live without masturbating 5-15 times to porn per week. I am now 25 btw. I feel really guilty after doing it. every single time. I feel very low mentally. physically it's not that of an issue. I recover within 1-2 days. But something inside me is telling that the addiction is ruining my life. Shannon told last time that I might be a very high testosterone guy like him. I can't get rid of the guilt though. And I have developed premature ejaculation. I am still virgin though. but now, it takes me 5-10 seconds to blow my load. It used to be lot longer when I was younger.
4. Last time I told my academic performance was ruining too. However, I suddenly gained confidence in my academic life and right now I am not only doing well, I am the best guy in my university. So that's one good news. I will graduate at the beginning of 2022.
I am very perfectionist type. For some reason I couldn't follow anything from any place. I didn't go full in with PUA stuffs, neither did I go full in with Shannon's advice (which was to either use free Emotional healing, or AM6 if I can afford it). I don't know what is still blocking me. I am also surprised that my academic life dramatically improved even if I did nothing. I just wanted to improve my grades so I don't fall into probation in university. I am guilty of using several other subliminal, Quantum healing, hypnosis, NLP, PSTEC, Tapping, meditation, visualization etc etc. everything. I never mixed anything with Shannon's subliminal though. Shannon prohibited it and I recalled, stayed away.
I am no longer suicidal though. I want to live, enjoy life and do something for humanity. I am not even too concerned about my love life. My parents will marry me off with a girl within next few years. But I am not internally satisfied. why? Because I know I am still a boy inside. I am very immature, don't know how to socialize with people, connect with women and still not taking any real world responsibilities (I still live with parents). I fear the world, I fear to go outside even. I am really enjoying Corona lockdown because I am staying home and taking classes from online. But for how long? and the woman my parents will marry me with, will she be totally satisfied with me? I doubt she will always see me as beta and take advantage of me, or cheat on me. Let's forget about women, what about business? my parents won't be there for me all my life. I have been studying Architecture, I will have lots of responsibilities and will have to run Design studio, lead engineers. Will I be able to do it? or I will remain someone's puppet forever? or If I do something else, will I be able to socialize and make a living? Although right now I am a bit confident with my skillsets, academic performance (I am far from suicidal thoughts and have something to focus on), but these questions really bother me.
I don't know what's wrong with me. is it because of my suppressed emotions that many "new age" spiritual gurus of today talks about? or is it my mother who permanently shaped me to be that way? Why am I not moving? what's the block? Why can't I even do a simple work like downloading free emotional healing mp3 and listen to it as I sleep for 30-90 days? I tried, but I quit every time after 5-10 days. Strange! I don't know why? Do I expect too early result subconsciously? or is it my perfectionism?
Although I said I am far from suicidal thoughts now, I am really concerned that these kinds of cycles will make me head towards that low point of my life again.
My current goals are -
1. finishing my university well (which I am doing well at the moment) and moving to a different place, because I really think I should be away from my mom for some time so I can grow freely, she still decides everything in my life right now and I am also comfortable with that
2. getting really good with women (no PUA stuffs helped me so far, I implemented little too
)
3. become more social ( I am not that bad though, I can easily stand in front of 50-100 people and present something, I am a designer, so I do it often, but I do it because I have to do it, not for fun),
4. solving my premature ejaculation issue and becoming skilled in bed too,
5. start earning money,
6. clearing my mental issues,
7. becoming health and fit (I am skinny), and stylish
8. becoming a MAN, alpha powerful man
I want to use subliminal again and I wanna do it with your stuffs. I don't know for how long will I stick to, but I will have to start first. In today's world, we have too many options and we implement nothing! I am very guilty of that.
I wanted to ask you if there is anything related to black magic/occult stuffs or something similar you use in any of your subliminal or any products? I am asking this because I don't want to involve in any magickal stuffs because of my personal preference. Another reason this question comes to my mind is because several friends of mine reported that they are using subliminals from a certain company and that the company uses occultish stuffs in their subliminals, and they are very open about it. I mean they publicly say they do. That info brings doubt into my mind that if all the subliminals are made that way.
Although I am not very religious, I don't want to involve into anything that has little bits of magickal rituals or similar thing. That's why clearing that doubt is very important for me.
BTW, I took a long break from subliminals and lots have happened in the meantime. The number of subliminal creators has increased drastically (on YouTube and as online company). I doubt their quality though. When I discovered IML in 2016 there were several companies. Anyway, life didn't change much for me. I think I am inside of a bubble which is bringing me the similar scenarios again and again. Let me elaborate a bit.
I posted about my condition here like 2 years ago. And I am guilty of not following your advice.
Back in 2018, I became suicidal. I became so depressed that I wanted to suicide. Why?
1. For some reason, all the women I like friend zone me. I confessed to some women I like and all rejected me and they said "they thought we were just friends"
Although I joined PUA world like many, and tried to solve everything logically, tried to act like an alpha (because I think I am beta, weak, immature), honestly, I couldn't. And worse, I keep attracting same kind of women who will friend zone me and create huge depression in my mind. It is like Shannon's cycle. Mine comes like every 2 year or so.2. I believe I have kept so many emotions suppressed inside me, and tried to hide all that now they wanna come out. how do I know? Many imaginary scenes automatically play inside my head with sudden outburst of emotion. Let me give an example. My mother is very very strict. She is like alpha in my family, she even dominates my father. My father is honestly weak, beta kind. So since childhood, my mom restricted me from many things. She told me seduction and sex are very very bad, terrible sin. She kept me home while other boys socialized and played outside. She still wants me to be in complete control of her. and many other things. So, after joining PUA, I realized that she programmed me to fail today with women. I probably have deep shame, guilt towards seduction and sex, so I avoid them subconsciously. Now I have huge anger towards her. I mentally imagine fighting with her and even killing her. Huge emotion comes up too, as if its happening in reality. Maybe my emotions want to come up and get released, but I am stuck.
3. Although my mom restricted me in many ways, I secretly developed terrible porn and masturbation addiction. I can't live without masturbating 5-15 times to porn per week. I am now 25 btw. I feel really guilty after doing it. every single time. I feel very low mentally. physically it's not that of an issue. I recover within 1-2 days. But something inside me is telling that the addiction is ruining my life. Shannon told last time that I might be a very high testosterone guy like him. I can't get rid of the guilt though. And I have developed premature ejaculation. I am still virgin though. but now, it takes me 5-10 seconds to blow my load. It used to be lot longer when I was younger.
4. Last time I told my academic performance was ruining too. However, I suddenly gained confidence in my academic life and right now I am not only doing well, I am the best guy in my university. So that's one good news. I will graduate at the beginning of 2022.
I am very perfectionist type. For some reason I couldn't follow anything from any place. I didn't go full in with PUA stuffs, neither did I go full in with Shannon's advice (which was to either use free Emotional healing, or AM6 if I can afford it). I don't know what is still blocking me. I am also surprised that my academic life dramatically improved even if I did nothing. I just wanted to improve my grades so I don't fall into probation in university. I am guilty of using several other subliminal, Quantum healing, hypnosis, NLP, PSTEC, Tapping, meditation, visualization etc etc. everything. I never mixed anything with Shannon's subliminal though. Shannon prohibited it and I recalled, stayed away.
I am no longer suicidal though. I want to live, enjoy life and do something for humanity. I am not even too concerned about my love life. My parents will marry me off with a girl within next few years. But I am not internally satisfied. why? Because I know I am still a boy inside. I am very immature, don't know how to socialize with people, connect with women and still not taking any real world responsibilities (I still live with parents). I fear the world, I fear to go outside even. I am really enjoying Corona lockdown because I am staying home and taking classes from online. But for how long? and the woman my parents will marry me with, will she be totally satisfied with me? I doubt she will always see me as beta and take advantage of me, or cheat on me. Let's forget about women, what about business? my parents won't be there for me all my life. I have been studying Architecture, I will have lots of responsibilities and will have to run Design studio, lead engineers. Will I be able to do it? or I will remain someone's puppet forever? or If I do something else, will I be able to socialize and make a living? Although right now I am a bit confident with my skillsets, academic performance (I am far from suicidal thoughts and have something to focus on), but these questions really bother me.
I don't know what's wrong with me. is it because of my suppressed emotions that many "new age" spiritual gurus of today talks about? or is it my mother who permanently shaped me to be that way? Why am I not moving? what's the block? Why can't I even do a simple work like downloading free emotional healing mp3 and listen to it as I sleep for 30-90 days? I tried, but I quit every time after 5-10 days. Strange! I don't know why? Do I expect too early result subconsciously? or is it my perfectionism?
Although I said I am far from suicidal thoughts now, I am really concerned that these kinds of cycles will make me head towards that low point of my life again.
My current goals are -
1. finishing my university well (which I am doing well at the moment) and moving to a different place, because I really think I should be away from my mom for some time so I can grow freely, she still decides everything in my life right now and I am also comfortable with that
2. getting really good with women (no PUA stuffs helped me so far, I implemented little too
)3. become more social ( I am not that bad though, I can easily stand in front of 50-100 people and present something, I am a designer, so I do it often, but I do it because I have to do it, not for fun),
4. solving my premature ejaculation issue and becoming skilled in bed too,
5. start earning money,
6. clearing my mental issues,
7. becoming health and fit (I am skinny), and stylish
8. becoming a MAN, alpha powerful man
I want to use subliminal again and I wanna do it with your stuffs. I don't know for how long will I stick to, but I will have to start first. In today's world, we have too many options and we implement nothing! I am very guilty of that.
