Transcendental Sith Lord's OFv2 Journal

[DarthXedonias]

@CatMan I know right?

@ncbeareatingman Glad someone got something out of my post. Thanks for your praise. I think in a matter of a few months I've come a long way.

@Shannon Well, whether its in MLS or not just glad the final component for FRM might be worked on soon.


Just an update. Results seem to be permanent at this point. The removal part in FRM seems to have accomplished its job. Its pretty obvious to me at this point that my problem before was that I might run a sub and get better only for the fear to "regrow" itself like a few weeks later. With that 5.75.5G upgrade though things seem to be permanently removed now once they are dealt with. I'm noticing I also just don't like overtly negative people anymore. I might try to encourage them or improve their mood for a while (if I've known for a bit) but if they just continually stay in that attitude I just remove myself from their presence. The negative attitude just annoys me now.

There is something else going on that I can't quite explain. Basically if a situation arises or something happens that might disrupt my plans a bit its like I don't even worry about it too much. I just see it as another obstacle to overcome. Thing is I'm noticing after this happens something else happens that counteracts that bad situation to make it even less of a disturbance (like getting outside help I wasn't expecting, etc). I actually got laid off from my driving job with that Amazon affiliate on January 22nd but I wasn't worried at all really. I had the choice to try to get on unemployment but I was resistant to it. This is a big change from the old me who wouldn't have hesitated to get on unemployment so he can stay locked up at home. Now I really, really don't like that idea and rather actually be outside making money, working and ''gasp' interacting with people.

Yesterday I applied for a job and then heard back from them immediately. Set an scheduled group zoom call which I attended today then got my job offer hours later. This job is significant as it not only pays higher than my previous job but because of what it is. Its an job at an Vaccination site (one of the major ones on the west coast). So the guy told us there is a very good chance we will be getting vaccinated after we start (hence jumping the que really). That will be helpful seeing as I will have documentation saying I'm Vaccinated which will perhaps help me get back to my job in China or even if I choose to go to Korea instead. Some countries are starting to implement a thing where if you are vaccinated you can skip their quarantine process which is a big deal seeing as the person has to usually pay for quarantine.

I do admit though as well that since the fear is practically gone I have thought about staying in the US a bit longer despite the currency crisis that is on the way. I had thought about simply staying a few more months and keeping only the require amount of expenses in my US account and have the rest of the money from my paycheck put in my Chinese account. So, when it happens I will remain relatively unaffected. Its only a thought though seeing as I can make like six figures here (especially after I get my second degree in possibly April or May) and I fear like with my fear gone the country I'm physically in doesn't matter "as much" as before. Sure, in the long term I would still move to Asia especially after I got my Masters degree and I still very much like the societies in Asia more. People are just a lot more kinder and have more manners.

The only downside if I did that would be  (1) Having my original Job in China back would be good for my Masters degree seeing as I only worked 13 hours a week which would leave me plenty of time to study and do projects, etc, and (2) If things got really, really bad in the US I would be in another country not affected it by much. I'm thinking if I stayed a bit longer it would probably until June or July possibly. I think by then I would have saved up maybe 12-20k possibly. Also for those who still think that this currency thing ain't going to happen I did hear an interesting stat which just backs up what I was saying in my currency crisis thread. Apparently at this moment of all the US dollars currently in circulation 30% were created within just the last few months. They have really been running those printing presses which generally isn't good.

Another option still for me is that I can actually (after my second degree) get a job in another English speaking country and work there for a while as a CS degree would practically guarantee me essential skilled worker status. Mainly looking at Canada and Australia at the moment. So don't know, might be seeing @CatMan or @Benjamin sometime in my future rofl.

One last thing it seems like when it comes to any of my future plans I just have this certainty now about them. That they will come to pass as easily as the sun rises in the morning. There is really not much if any doubt left in me. I just don't see the point or usefulness of having such a trait.