01-24-2021, 08:37 AM
Stage 6, Day 16
I had to kick the covers off of me multiple times last night. My body has been sporadically radiating intense heat from my chest/torso and my hands.
I've been using the "becoming" exercise daily since I first mentioned it in this journal. But for the past few weeks, it has been difficult. When I attempt the exercise, I feel like I'm in a mental whirlwind. My thoughts, desires, and imagery are all over the place. In fact, I've almost totally lost interest in the initial experience I was seeking (which is ridiculously particular and based on a severely "boxed-in" mindset, now that I think about it). The emotional charge of immersing myself in the experience is gone. To me, this suggests that I've progressed beyond the obsessive need for this particular experience.
I had to kick the covers off of me multiple times last night. My body has been sporadically radiating intense heat from my chest/torso and my hands.
I've been using the "becoming" exercise daily since I first mentioned it in this journal. But for the past few weeks, it has been difficult. When I attempt the exercise, I feel like I'm in a mental whirlwind. My thoughts, desires, and imagery are all over the place. In fact, I've almost totally lost interest in the initial experience I was seeking (which is ridiculously particular and based on a severely "boxed-in" mindset, now that I think about it). The emotional charge of immersing myself in the experience is gone. To me, this suggests that I've progressed beyond the obsessive need for this particular experience.
