01-17-2021, 09:08 PM
@Benjamin Yeah, you are right. It was the same for me of staying to myself due to my trauma.. now though I don't give a shit either way. I become social naturally when I want to and I stay to myself when I want to. The Thing its no more extrovert or introvert for me, its just do what I want. So I guess the "freedom" I have gotten by destroying fear has paid off. I will say though once I get this computer science degree I probably will be more and more focused on that as I want to get my work on AI done. Also I just as I said just feel like so many of these people are just so fearful about this or that and some don't even realize it.
@London1 Hybrid, 2 loops each time with 1 day break. Honestly at the end of the day just either follow the instructions or do what you feel lead to do. I feel like too many on this forum (not talking to you now just people in general on this forum) are too concerned with whether they have the right specs on their sound system, etc, etc. Just see that it has the HRZ required to play ultrasonic and is stereo.. besides that just run the sub as instructed or as you are lead by your subconscious. People on here need to stop overanalyzing this. Just set it and forget it.
Well, funny enough today I felt the way I usually do now while having OFv2 running in my head but it was my first day back to work since being a big sick, this is after all the aforementioned changes. I actually saw I decent looking women walking across the street and literally considered going to talk to her. As in seriously considered doing so. Only reason i didn't was because I was still on the clock for my job and I was still wearing part of my uniform for my job. So I don't think that would have went over too well and it wasn't that important. Interesting as well is just that that was the first time I even considered talking to a women out of interest since all these changes. To be honest most women are just "meh" or "ok" for me now. I think the fear was making me needy to a degree but now I can just see that a women looks decent but somehow I find most are worthy of me anyway. If all they have is their looks then what's the point? I future career and work I will be doing in the field is worth more than just someone who won the genetic lottery. There has to be something else.
In line with this and somewhat touched upon with what @CatMan said about DMSI in the discussion journal (regarding losing interest in chasing women, etc) I believe I have come to realize why when someone is on OF they seem to be less and less interested in women. I think its because of a certain fear pressure on this need to procreate. Obviously there are certain fears society puts in us that increases this neediness for sex, etc but I think there are some natural things as well. Obviously for men there is the testosterone that increases hornyess quite a bit for some of us but I think there also might be this fear motivation of "I need to have sex to pass on my genes" that is below the surface that adds to it as well. That combined with some society installed fears (fear of losing out, being a virgin, etc, etc) makes some guys just so needy for it that they are willing to cuck out quite a bit. I was thinking about this due to watching a documentary the other day due where they were touching on evolution and reproduction. They did talk about this one fly that once it reaches adulthood it only has 2 days to mate until it dies. Obviously having that short of time would produce some type of fear around "I need to do this now or else" and you see this in quite a few animals,etc the lengths males will do to get a mate.
Obviously humans live quite a lot longer but there might still be this fear that adds to the pressure of having sex as soon as possible. I think since OF is supposed to deal with all fears and eliminate them then it might be taking care of this fear that creates an urgency to have sex. I don't know who else it was but I know on OFv1 there was someone else around here who said they really weren't as interested in women much anymore while they were running it. Anyway, that is the theory I have at the moment. Right now I know I'm not really in some hurry like I would have been to be in some relationship. That women was the first one in a while that I saw that I was even thinking of talking to since something about her peaked my interest.
@London1 Hybrid, 2 loops each time with 1 day break. Honestly at the end of the day just either follow the instructions or do what you feel lead to do. I feel like too many on this forum (not talking to you now just people in general on this forum) are too concerned with whether they have the right specs on their sound system, etc, etc. Just see that it has the HRZ required to play ultrasonic and is stereo.. besides that just run the sub as instructed or as you are lead by your subconscious. People on here need to stop overanalyzing this. Just set it and forget it.
Well, funny enough today I felt the way I usually do now while having OFv2 running in my head but it was my first day back to work since being a big sick, this is after all the aforementioned changes. I actually saw I decent looking women walking across the street and literally considered going to talk to her. As in seriously considered doing so. Only reason i didn't was because I was still on the clock for my job and I was still wearing part of my uniform for my job. So I don't think that would have went over too well and it wasn't that important. Interesting as well is just that that was the first time I even considered talking to a women out of interest since all these changes. To be honest most women are just "meh" or "ok" for me now. I think the fear was making me needy to a degree but now I can just see that a women looks decent but somehow I find most are worthy of me anyway. If all they have is their looks then what's the point? I future career and work I will be doing in the field is worth more than just someone who won the genetic lottery. There has to be something else.
In line with this and somewhat touched upon with what @CatMan said about DMSI in the discussion journal (regarding losing interest in chasing women, etc) I believe I have come to realize why when someone is on OF they seem to be less and less interested in women. I think its because of a certain fear pressure on this need to procreate. Obviously there are certain fears society puts in us that increases this neediness for sex, etc but I think there are some natural things as well. Obviously for men there is the testosterone that increases hornyess quite a bit for some of us but I think there also might be this fear motivation of "I need to have sex to pass on my genes" that is below the surface that adds to it as well. That combined with some society installed fears (fear of losing out, being a virgin, etc, etc) makes some guys just so needy for it that they are willing to cuck out quite a bit. I was thinking about this due to watching a documentary the other day due where they were touching on evolution and reproduction. They did talk about this one fly that once it reaches adulthood it only has 2 days to mate until it dies. Obviously having that short of time would produce some type of fear around "I need to do this now or else" and you see this in quite a few animals,etc the lengths males will do to get a mate.
Obviously humans live quite a lot longer but there might still be this fear that adds to the pressure of having sex as soon as possible. I think since OF is supposed to deal with all fears and eliminate them then it might be taking care of this fear that creates an urgency to have sex. I don't know who else it was but I know on OFv1 there was someone else around here who said they really weren't as interested in women much anymore while they were running it. Anyway, that is the theory I have at the moment. Right now I know I'm not really in some hurry like I would have been to be in some relationship. That women was the first one in a while that I saw that I was even thinking of talking to since something about her peaked my interest.
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