01-17-2021, 12:15 PM
Hi Shannon, any updates on programs being worked on?
I wish DMSI was out to deal with an issue I have with a girl I rekindled with on V3.3.2 awhile back when she willingly gave me her number without me asking. I was shocked and thought I won the lottery at the time. Nothing really has transpired since, despite my efforts, sadly. Even before the virus situation. Haven't heard back for like a week now. Seems to be slipping through my fingers magically...again I guess I'm not sure. I'm beyond tired of failing with them, it's insane how this has happened my entire life now. I really wonder why I keep putting myself through the disappointment and trying since nothing changes.
I'm fighting the ever-increasing anger and resentment building towards women. They just are not attracted for some reason. Period. I'm always the "great friend" and all that insulting BS. They feel just as impossible to get as ever. I have no idea why, feels futile.
Anyway, all the best. Looking forward to hearing about whatever is made soon. I can't remember if it's NSFM or the secret one. Really hope DMSI R&D is yielding results. A part of me is just wondering if I don't have fear of girls, and if it's my self esteem that's destroyed with them, external validation issues with them because I do yearn for their interest as I've never had it before and want it for once in my life. Or if I just have PTSD about them. Given MY background with them...and my feelings and reactions to things with them, doesn't sound far off. It's like a "Sigh...*groan*...oh god here we go AGAIN..." whenever I start to like one. If I could just get some good things going with them, I know that'd go a long way to turn the tide and get me going as a NORMAL man. But that still seems impossible. I mean, in September I'll become a 40 year old virgin. Never had a girlfriend, never took a girl on a date, never kissed a girl. My god. What a pathetic embarrassment. This program can't come soon enough, maybe self esteem/confidence/removal of external validation will help this program.
I wish DMSI was out to deal with an issue I have with a girl I rekindled with on V3.3.2 awhile back when she willingly gave me her number without me asking. I was shocked and thought I won the lottery at the time. Nothing really has transpired since, despite my efforts, sadly. Even before the virus situation. Haven't heard back for like a week now. Seems to be slipping through my fingers magically...again I guess I'm not sure. I'm beyond tired of failing with them, it's insane how this has happened my entire life now. I really wonder why I keep putting myself through the disappointment and trying since nothing changes.
I'm fighting the ever-increasing anger and resentment building towards women. They just are not attracted for some reason. Period. I'm always the "great friend" and all that insulting BS. They feel just as impossible to get as ever. I have no idea why, feels futile.
Anyway, all the best. Looking forward to hearing about whatever is made soon. I can't remember if it's NSFM or the secret one. Really hope DMSI R&D is yielding results. A part of me is just wondering if I don't have fear of girls, and if it's my self esteem that's destroyed with them, external validation issues with them because I do yearn for their interest as I've never had it before and want it for once in my life. Or if I just have PTSD about them. Given MY background with them...and my feelings and reactions to things with them, doesn't sound far off. It's like a "Sigh...*groan*...oh god here we go AGAIN..." whenever I start to like one. If I could just get some good things going with them, I know that'd go a long way to turn the tide and get me going as a NORMAL man. But that still seems impossible. I mean, in September I'll become a 40 year old virgin. Never had a girlfriend, never took a girl on a date, never kissed a girl. My god. What a pathetic embarrassment. This program can't come soon enough, maybe self esteem/confidence/removal of external validation will help this program.
