Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 5

[Shannon]

Hi @Shannon

What is your opinion on jealousy and what it’s root causes are?

I’ve found myself filled with jealousy all throughout my life- especially with regards to close friends of mine and if they are more successful than me in some fashion mainly especially when it  comes  to money and women, I tend to become filled with resent for those close to me whenever they come out on top rather myself- in the sense that I must always come out on top and I can’t bring myself to be proud of them, happy for them or filled with joy in any way when it’s them coming out on top rather than myself

I believe that jealousy ultimately stems from a combination of faulty beliefs and fear.  The faulty beliefs basically amount to, "If someone else has X, I cannot.", or "If someone else wins, I lose.", or "If someone else has X, I'm not good enough somehow." or "I deserve to have everything, and if anyone else has something I don't, then they deserve to be punished for stealing it from me."  Things like that.  Those beliefs generate a fear of not being good enough, or missing out, or being considered inferior by others, etc. which result in the feelings of jealously and the choices and actions that the jealously itself results in.

It is part maturity level, part faulty beliefs and part fear.  The maturity level has to do with the part of your conscious or subconscious in which the faulty beliefs reside.  The "version of you" that believes those things, and responds with jealousy.

What can I do to rid myself of this and better myself internally and externally to not only not care but to genuinely be happy for those around me while also being genuinely happy in my own life

I’m currently using LTU6 and started supplementing a bit with OF V2

LTUv6 is a good choice of programs to use.  OF is also good, but perhaps not as good as LTUv6.  E4 might also be a good choice, but again, not as good as LTUv6.

As a side note: I believe that I have a fear of sex, women  and/or intimacy on some level (tough to believe for someone who loves women and sexy as much as me, at least on the conscious level)- this realization came about when I stopped using OF V1 and switched over to LTU6, I would get the runs or at least some sort of stomach discomfort whenever I would be with a new woman, I found myself treating this discomfort with alcohol- it’s not until applying OF V2 that I notice the discomfort in my stomach subsiding as well as the runs and use of alcohol- any  idea why this might be and why any man would fear sex, women, or intimacy on any level to begin with?

If it's causing gastro-intestinal issues, then it's going to be something that comes from a very deep part of your subconscious, very likely a very young version of yourself that is long forgotten by your conscious mind.  That part of you will have had one or more experiences which were associated with the things you now fear, in a negative way, and interpreted in such a way as to result in that fear.