12-20-2020, 11:14 AM
Stage 5, Day 9
Last night was the first ASRB2 break for Stage 5. Part of me wanted to continue without a break, but I was beginning to experience the onset of fatigue. So, I went with the break.
I'm really enjoying the "becoming" exercise. At first I was worried about whether or not I was doing it right. Now I'm having fun exploring. It's a little bit like feeling my way around a never-ending dark room where areas I explore become illuminated. Continual exploration of the same areas causes the illumination to brighten, which dimly reveals other areas of the room that I hadn't seen before. All of this is an analogy to illustrate how the process is simultaneously helping me to bring my goal into focus and revealing to me possibilities that I had never considered before. The clearer my primary goal becomes, the more my awareness broadens. It's pretty badass.
More and more, I'm seeing how this all feeds into mental and emotional inertia. As an extension of that, I can see how reality changes. That inertia is required to overcome the constraining energy that holds us in place. I don't have it all figured out but I'm having fun learning. I wish I had been turned on to this stuff 20+ years ago.
Last night was the first ASRB2 break for Stage 5. Part of me wanted to continue without a break, but I was beginning to experience the onset of fatigue. So, I went with the break.
I'm really enjoying the "becoming" exercise. At first I was worried about whether or not I was doing it right. Now I'm having fun exploring. It's a little bit like feeling my way around a never-ending dark room where areas I explore become illuminated. Continual exploration of the same areas causes the illumination to brighten, which dimly reveals other areas of the room that I hadn't seen before. All of this is an analogy to illustrate how the process is simultaneously helping me to bring my goal into focus and revealing to me possibilities that I had never considered before. The clearer my primary goal becomes, the more my awareness broadens. It's pretty badass.
More and more, I'm seeing how this all feeds into mental and emotional inertia. As an extension of that, I can see how reality changes. That inertia is required to overcome the constraining energy that holds us in place. I don't have it all figured out but I'm having fun learning. I wish I had been turned on to this stuff 20+ years ago.
